Friedship?!
My life Sucks
My heart hurts much
Because I can no longer trust
In fact I never really could
But people tell me that I should
That’s much easier said than done
When all you do is sit in your room
With family that doesn’t like me
And friends without time for me
My life is everything but NOT easy!
Once my older Sister told me:
Just be careful not to be
Friends that are not like me
Because the difference in personality would be to great
And soon this ‘friends’ will escape
And like she said it did happen…
Too bad that I easily became attached
And feelings of friendship started to hatch.
Afterwards, when they were leaving
I was the one who’s heart was bleeding
So I picked up what was remaining
And tried again, but I was failing
When some time had passed I had learned
Friends are people I should not earn.
Like family they can hurt you the most
For just stepping on their toes
So I always kept myself
Hiding behind a bookshelf
15 and more years pasted by
And behind my bookshelf I would cry
Cry because I feel alone
All alone in my room
But never thought of this place as home
Hiding behind my bookshelf
That I sometimes think represents myself
Filled with books, but no heart
And from Humanity Miles apart.
And then it happened…
Three people came and looked for me
Behind my bookshelf where I hide me
They smiled at me and pulled me up
And here I was completely shocked!!!
They told me that they care for me
That they would be there for me
And that really did make me happy
But inside my head my inner Emo woke up
And told my heart to SHUT UP!
That in time
I won’t feel fine
And again will be the one left crying
And my heart, it stopped beating
And is now strongly bleeding
Because like so long ago
The happy feelings that I had
Made me grow attached
Now I m scared like never before!
And the wish to hide grows more and more
I want to run, I want to scream
And to never come back again!
I AM SCARED!!!
I fear the most that they’ll stop caring
And I’ll be the one left starring
That after time they think I am annoying
And that I should stop my crying
I never stayed with people this log
And now I’m scared of being alone.
