1000 decisions to make   von AkazuIzuya
                           (Frau x Teito x Ayanami)
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                           Kapitel 1: Fake lost lamb
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Chapter 1

If I would have known how a single decision would turn everything I knew,
everything I believed in, everything I thought I had acomplished upside down, my
live wouldn't have ended this fucked up. And believe me when I say that, because
normally I would not use abusive language. But I had no other word to describe
my live as it was right now. I would have to learn a whole new vocabulary to
describe what I... saw in this one moment I made the first big decision in my
life. Now everything was so... wrong. Nothing was meant to happen as it did. But
there was no chance to turn back time. No chance to correct mistakes. No chance
to take back words, once spoken out loud.

No chance to take the burden that was meant to be mine in the beginning.

Now I had nowhere left to hide. Nowhere left to die.

Oh wait. That was wrong. I had a million ways to die yet, but I am sure as hell
it would be only one. And I did not have powers as Labrador had. No flowers
whispering inside my head what the future would bring. And I couldn't manipulate
the strings of life like Castor did. If I had, believe me, I would have cut
every string leading to me. But as you can guess, I'm not Castor. Although I
sometimes had the habit of speaking of myself 3rd person, I wouldn't do that in
my head. Castor and Lab are my friends. Or something like that. More like they
where watchdogs of mine.

But turning back to the reason I begang with my inner monolog, was the boy in
front of me. No, I should rather say man. He was tall. Blonde. His hair was
messy and in spikes that denied every ounce of gravity. His eyes were closed but
I would bet my life he had saphire blue orbs.

I stared at him for more that a few minutes now.

Why?

Oh, that wasn't hard o explain. I knew him all to well. I knew how he thought,
what he liked, how that grin of his would make me explode in near future. I knew
how strong he was, I knew what he would become for me.

And I hated all that.

"You look like you want to slice him apart with a knife or something like that"
Labrador smiled. Like he always did. Most of the time I thought his smile was
reassuring, and mild. It would heal my stirred soul. But now there was this tone
in his voice. I noticed quikly that his statement was meant to be more that a
mere statement.

"Well. No. I would take my scythe if Castor wouldn't stand behind me like that.
A knife would not make sure enough he doesn't come near me. With that abnormally
big body of his a knife wouldn't be enough at all" I replied. This time Labrador
just chuckled a bit. I felt Castor behind me, pushing up his glasses again. He
was kind enough to step aside, between me and the bed that damned blonde laid
in.

Sure enough he knew I didn't joke a moment ago. Both of them knew. Moreover,
they knew I had quite the bad temper and hated lies. The two bishops just smiled
at me, then turned to the man in the bed.

"You know him?" Castor then asked. I snorted. "Wish I would not" I just said.
Well it wasn't that I knew that blonde exactly. But it was more than a feeling
and more than one of Labs premonitions. I wished this very instant I had decided
otherwise at some point in my life.

Still starring at that man, Labrador decided to ignore my mood and looked at the
blonde. "Do you know his name?" He asked mildly. I sighted, closed my eyes and
walked to the wall, leaning my back against it. It gave me a secure feeling.
Nobody behind my back that I couldn't see.

"Well, should be Frau I guess"

"You guess?"

"Yeah. Seeing him today for the first time in life. Just like you two" I
shrugged my shoulders. I knew very well how confused both of them were looking
at me right now, without looking at them. I was contradicting myself. I couldn't
know someone I had never seen before, could I?

Well, the answer to that would have to wait. And as Castor knew, I hated to be
interrogated.

"First, I think we should let him sleep. He seems tired, and tending to his
injuries will have to wait until he is awake. I think all of us should resume
their duties for now." Castor said. I sighted again. "No. If I'm right he should
wake up in a few minutes. And I think someone will have to stop him then from
running wild" Labrador said calmly.

I snorted again. "Just let the sisters take care of him. He will be delighted,
belive me" I almost spit out. my mood was down again as I remembered how he
would be. Oh yeah. He really would be delighted if those three beautiful sisters
would look after him. No doubt he would. I found myself kind of pouting and
agressive at the same time over these thoughts. As soon as I notiec that, I
brushed my hand through my hair.

"I'll take my leave here. My head throbs because of him and I honestly don't
want to stay near him. Also I promised the church orphans to talk to them about
the ghosts today. They seem to love this story." I said, as I pushed myself off
of the wall. Just when I thought I could take me leave, I heard the injured man
moan in pain. Almost at the door I stoped in my movements. That voice sent
chills down my spine and I honestly didn't know wether I liked that or not.

But I was sure of one thing: I had to get away from him, before all those things
in my head started to come back to me again.

"You should lie down. You're quite injured, you know. Just take it easy." I said
as I finally left the room. I was not sure whether he was awake enough already
to understand my words, but I couldn't care less actually. The moment I made
that decision back then, everything changed. The next decision was his to take.

Frau's P.O.V.:

My body hurt all over. At first I was sure as hell I was dead. Then I remembered
that the pain meant I was still alive.

Heck, I couldn't even count the times I had that realisation until this point in
my life. I often thought I was dead, hoping everything had endet. But then
again, did death mean the end of all?

At these thoughts even my head started to hurt. Now I couldn't ignore the pain
anymore, moaned and opened my eyes. When I was awake enough to feel pain, I
could also look after my injuries. That had become somewhat of a routine to me.
At first everything was to bright. Heck why was everything so bright? So instead
of starting to look around, I sat up.

"You should lie down. You're quite injured you know. Just take it easy." someone
said. I heard a door was opened, and finally was able to focus something,
looking at the guy... no, boy, who just left the room. All I could manage to see
was brown hair that looked quite silky. And then the door was closed again.

"Thanks for stating the obvious." I snorted, but instantely noticed I shouldn't
have done that. I coughed, when I noticed someone was pating my back sofetly,
and turned my head around. The guy next to me had gentle, light-purple hair and
eyes. He smiled gentle. I starred at him for a moment. He wore white robes.
Wait, was he a priest?

"Don't move around to quick. You lost quite the amount of blood, and we weren't
able to tend to your injuries yet." the guy said. I still just stared at him.
That sure were weird colors.

"Labrador is right. You should lay down again" another voice woke me out of my
blank mind. I turned my head to the other side, and saw another priest. Heck,
just where did I end up?

I stared again, this time at some smiling guy with brown hair. Or whas it red?
Something in between maybe. He had brown eyes, at least that was what I was sure
of.

"I don't feel like lying down. Where am I? And who the heck are you priests
anyway? At least I'm sure I'm not at the military, 'cos they would never tell me
to rest. Not with those minor injuries" I said. Or what could be said to be
minor. My head was already spinning but I didn't care about that. I could
imagine how I looked, but I had been worse off in my past.

"You're at barsburg church, 7th district. This is Labrador, and I'm Castor. We
found you not far away and brought you back here with us. May we ask your name?"
the one named Castor said. I thought about that for a while. "Don't remember" I
just said than.

"You don't remember?" Labrador asked me. I nodded. Moreover, I didn't trust them
and I did not want to talk to them about my past. None of their business.

"Then, what do you remember?" Castor asked me. I shrugged my shoulders. " Black
coats. Blood. Military. I think that sums up everything" I said. It should have
sounded casually. But of couse, my slightely shivering fingers were noticed. So
I just sighted.

"Anyways, don't you have some cute sisters that wouldn't mind caring for a lost
lamb? Thats what a church does, isn't it?" I changed the topic. I really could
need some cute girls and women now. just to reassure my mind. And a cigarette.
The nicotine would also calm me down. Lost in my thoughts I only now noticed
that both priests were slightly chuckling.

"Hey. Whats so funny?" I asked. "Nothing. Just that Mikhael predicted you would
ask that" Castor replied.

"Mikhael? Who's that?" I was confused. "The one who told us where to find you.
The boy who walked out as you woke up" Labrador explained.

"So, captain obvious is actually named Mikhael? Fine. And how the hell was he
able to predict my question?"

"Well, Mikhael has always been special when it comes to some people. Don't mind
that. Let me tend to your injuries and rest a bit." that Labrador said. I stared
at him for a moment, then I sighted.

So that boy was named Mikhael. I remembered his voice for a moment, and that
silky brown hair. It seemed he was my saviour. I had to search him later and say
'thank you' then. But first, I had my injuries tended to. Although I was quite
good in ignoring them by now, they started throbbing the moment that Labrador
had mentioned them to me.

"I'd prefer it if some cute girls would tend to me. But for now, you will also
do" I grinned at that dog named guy.

Teito's P.O.V.:

It was some time ago when I arrived at this church. But I remember that day all
too well. I mean, one doesn't meet the 07-ghosts every day. Exept from me. I
knew them before my arrival. And now thwo of them were friends of mine. A fouth
was also, but he was almost never at the church. Lucky me, for he always picked
on me. In a somewhat friendly way and I knew he didn't mean to hurt me. It
seemed to be his way of showing he cared for someone. It may also be just to
point out he could do everything with his 'beauty'.

Anyways, bishop Lance was not here, and I was thankfull for that. It was enough
that castor kept an eye on me. After they had tendet to Fraus injuries and
convinced him to sleep, the brown haired had started to follow me. Without
saying anything. That was more than enough for me to understand... but I was not
in the mood to talk to him.

"I heard you asked for a leave from your duties from archbishop Jio?" Castor
finally asked. I stopped and sighted. "Yeah. But you can guess the answer to
that" was my reply. Of course, Jio-sama declined. He wanted me to care for Frau.
As he seemed to know the same as me. Or... no. Maybe he just felt how I started
to close up again. After I finally startet to open up to the others.

"He surely declined. That would explain your bad mood. By the way, that guy,
Frau, said he doesn't remember. Not his name, nor his past." Castor said.

"He's lying" I just said. " But either way, it's not our duty to poke our nose
into that." Castor reminded me. I nodded. "I know. This is a church after all.
We're tending to him, caring for him, even if he would be a criminal" I
sighted.

"Oh? Judging from your words he is at least no criminal" Castor concluded. I
turned around hastily. He smiled. "Of course not! Frau would never hurt someone
out of his own accord!" I angrilly said, almost shouted.

"So he hurt people, but not because he wanted to, but he was forced to?" Castor
again asked. I felt heat rising to my cheeks. On one side I was angry at Castor,
for interrogating me in this weird way, making me spill information because of
my bad temper. On the other hand I knew it was because he was worried.

Knowing that I sighted. "Geez, Castor! Stop making me angry already! I told you
I didn't want to talk about him."

"You are afraid, Lab said."

"Yeah. I am. There are things I dont want to happen. Things I dont want to
change. Things I dont want to decide on. But now that Frau is here, I'm left
with nothing but choices I wish to avoid." I explained. "He doesn't know
himself. But there are many things he doesn't know yet."

"Yet?" Castor asked. I shook my head. "Ask Lab for more of that. For now, I'll
start making my rounds trough the night."

"What about Frau? He's still in your room."

"Let him stay. You know that I prefer not to sleep. If I really need to I'll
take the infirmary."

Castor sighted, but seemed to finally let go of the topic. As I saw that rare
sight I smiled slightly. A rare sight I hadn't shown them until now. "Don't
worry about me, neither about Frau. I'm alright. And I can't change the past
either way. Now that he's here, it's up to him to make the next decision. But
I'm sure, Labrador caught up better. After all, he's the one with visions of the
future." I slighty chuckled.

"And let that doll have an eye on someone else. You don't need to observe me,
Castor" I turned away again, making my stroll trough the corridor. I was aware
that castor stared after me, but I really could care less about that. I heard
Castor walking awayand tthe presence of his doll also had always been suspicious
of me, although I was one of them. But then again, they didn't know my past.
Would they know, they had seen me with other eyes. From an other perspective.
And their suspicion wasn't that much off.

I kind of smiled about that thought. My past. It had been a long time I last
thought about it. I had finaly setled down here in the present, and now... I
sighted again. I did that surprisingly often in the last few hours. That was all
that damn pervert Fraus fault. And he didn't even know that.

My steps echoed in the long, lonely and empty corridors. It had been late when
Castor had started to follow me, but by now it had become night. I walked
aimlessly around, looking into the halls, trough the garden and in other places
to make sure no one had been left behind accidentaly, and no kor had enterred
the church. That had happened a few times since I came here. And it wouldn't
stop, now that Frau was here. That much I knew of the future.

Without myself realizing it I had endet up in the vast mass hall, where the
benches and the huge cross were. I halted my movemend and stared at the cross in
front of me. It was bigger than I was tall. Well, I was small like a child to
beginn with, so that really didn't surprise me.

But seeing the cross now remindet me of archbishop Jio and I snorted.

"To hell with him! If I want a break from my duties I want a break! What's with
him declining!" I mumled to myself. I crossed my arms, still starring at the
cross, and was pouting for a few minutes.

But then I reminded myself that I was not here to complain. Neither did I come
here to pray. So I turned around again, leaving the room in a straight way, eyes
closed more or less.

"Now, what do I do now with that damned blonde?" I started to talk to myself. I
liked the quiet, but today it made me feel lonely. In my past, my nights hadn't
been lonely at all.

"Labrador seems to know. No wonder since he knows most of the future. Castor is
even more suspicious of me. Something I had prefered to not happen. Jio-sama
won't let me take a break, not even from mass. Lance... I don't want to think
about him now." the last sentence was more or less murmured annoyed.

"But then again, I'm sure Hakuren will be jealous of Frau. If I have to keep
watch over him, I won't have time to help him memorise his verses. Hell make my
days to hell" I sighted again.

"I really will" as I heard that voice I stopped and turned to the owner. It was
Hakuren, glitterin at me and he seemed quite irritated. "Who is Frau? And why do
you have to keep watch over him? By the way, you promised me this morning that
bishop Castor would make the rounds tonight! You barely sleep!" Hakuren rushed
at me. I could just chukle sligtly.

"Well, you will have to see for yourself. You are to precaucious to everyone.
Not something a bishop apprentice should be, Hakuren"

"Stop that. You're evading me. Who is Frau?"

"I picked someone up after lunch outside the church as I was in charge of doing
the shopping with the orphans today. He was injured so I brought him back. He's
from the military, so of course I have to look after him" I explained.

Hakuren looked at me for a minute, then started to walk the way I was going to
take before. Obviously he was going to accompany me in my duties.

"So, he told you his name?"

"No. Just don't ask. I really don't have any idea how to explain what I know.
But he is from the military, so..."

"So you feel a kind of connection and at the same time pity." Hakuren endet my
sentence. "I noticed long ago that you have to good reflexes for just being a
church orphan that became a bishop. You are also from the military, Mikhael" he
stated.

I didn't say anything at first. "I wanted to forget my past. But now I have to
care for that guy, not to run away from myself. He needs me. Just like I need
you."

I needen't look at him to know how he blushed. "Mikhael! What are you saying?!"
he asked, utterly flastered and I chuckled.

"But it's true. You know I am one of the seven. You know I have the scythe. You
know my true name. And you wait for me to tell you my past until I can face it
alone. You were there for me when the other ghosts were suspicious of me and you
stood up to them when they wanted to erase your memorie. You were the reason I
didn't become insane just yet" I added further. And I could have sworn steam
came out of his ears. This time I laughed.

"It's hard to believe you're a bishop and I'm the apprentice you know.
Considering you're younger and smaller and so tiny. Only in times like these
when you are true to yourself and giving others advise one can believe that." he
sighted. I ignored the fact he called me small.

"And he needs you, like you need me?" He asked. I nodded. "He has such a big
body. Such big hands. He talks in a strong, abusive way so others won't see how
fragile he is. Blue orbs full of sorrow whenever he thinks no one looks at him.
Flirting with everyone but not letting someone close enough to notice his
loneliness. Hakuren, when I see someone like that I can't help but try to
comfort him" I sighted.

"Beats me from where you have your information about him. But you knew well
about me also. Not to mention about Razette. A kingdome for the answer to my
question. Really." this time he let out a deep sight. I again chukled.

"So, you want to look after him."

I nodded.

"But don't you want to avoid him? I mean... he brings back unpleasant memories,
does he not?"

I made a grimace at that statement. Someone give him candy for his
quick-wittedness please. "I'll watch him from the shadows. If I'm lucks he won't
notice, or ignore my presence. Sooner or later I would have to talk to him
either way. No going back now, that I brought him to the church anymway." I
explained."And with that, go to bed, Hakuren" I ended our konversation here. At
least if that could be called conversation. He looked at me, not happy about it,
but quikly gave up his weird stare. "I'll bring you to your room. Sleep some
hours. And if you don't mind, tend to Frau a bit, would you? Showing him the
library and so on."

Hakuren noddet and I brought him to his room. He gave me a tired smile and
closed the door after him.

I continued my walk until the first rays of sun broke through the gray sky.



                          Kapitel 2: Sweet sweet tea
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I could have sworn Frau would be in my room. He was still injured and needed to
lay down. Not to mention how much blood he had lost. But of course, he was
neither in my bed, nor in my room. I also didn't hear anything from the
bathroom, and so I was alone. Relieved about that I showered and got a quick
change of clothes, until I went out again. This time I wore my bishop robes, as
I had to attend mass. Sometimes I couldn't believe myself that I became a
bishop. Musst be because it was kind of to easy for me, as memorizing the verses
was not needed to me. At least that was what I thought to myself as I looked
into the mirrow. Brown hair. Emerald green eyes. Dark circles underneath them. I
quikly looked away, put the hat on top of my head, and walked out of my room.

"Good morning bishop Mikhael" some nuns greeted my in the pathway. I smiled.
"Good morning sisters. Have you by any chance seen the blonde man that was
supposed to be in my room and bed?" I asked them. They looked at eatch other.

"Yeah. We helped him bath this morning, tended to his wounds and then apprentice
Hakuren came to pic him up." they explained. I nodded contently. So Hakuren
looked after him a bit. I owned him a favor now. "Thank you sisters. How were
his wounds?" I watched as their faces started to blush on the one side. Oh...
yeah, I remembered Frau had a body one would get jealous of. But their faces
also brightened up.

"Are you by any chance worrying about him, bishop Mikhael?" they then asked. I
didn't expect this question and kind of blushed myself now. "You might not
believe it, but as I am a clergyman, of course I worry. And besides it was me
that brought him here so... yeah, I'm worrying about him"

They laughed and clapped their hands. "It's just that you usually just worry
about the orphans and keep your distance from others, although you are a bishop.
It's good to see you care for someone else than the children" they smiled. I
just shook my head at this statement.

"Well, for now let's just get to mass. It's time." I said and went ahead,
smilingly. How could I not worry about Frau? Oh right. They had no idea of my
connection to him.

I met up with the other bishops and almost dozed off while the mass was held. I
wasn't good with this thing from the beginning, yet Jio-sama always told me to
be there. Maybe he thought something would change my attitude towads the mess
the more I participated. He couldn'd be more off with that thought...

I pushed down the yawn that creeped up in me, looking at the people sitting on
the benches. I found Hakuren not far away from me. That didn't surprise me,
since he was always at mass. But next to him there was Frau. And well, that did
surprise me quite much. The Frau I knew would not attend mass out of his own
accord. But then again, I didn't knew this Frau to beginn with.

I started to confuse myself. So I just closed my eyes and started to sing with
the others. That made just standing there a bit less boring. It was a relief
that this actually seemed to be the last song and I succesfully made it yet
through another boring mass.

When the bishops dissolved I sighted and also went back. Back to work actually,
as I was one of the bishops that took care of the children together with the
nuns. But of course, I should have known that Hakuren would want me to meet
Frau. Especially after yesterday night when I said I didn't want to be close to
him. It was typicall for him. I saw those two walking in my direction when
somone a bit smaller than me pulled at my clothes. A cute humming tone was
telling me it was Razette. Instantely Hakuren stopped, telling Frau to stay
where he was. As Razette was very shy, that was probably for the best. I turned
half way round when she jumped at me and threw me over. I shrieked at that. The
floor was cold and hard. It hurt, but Razzete weight almost nothing, so at least
she didn't hurt me badly. Lying on top of me she was humming again, both her
hands on my cheeks. Smiling brightely. Was she trying to cheer me up? I startet
to laugh a little at that, used my elbows to help get me into an upright
position. At least my upper body.

"It's ok Razzete. I'm ok. Nothing serious" I pattet her head. Another humming
tone followed and my head turned towards Hakuren and Frau.

"She says it's ok to come nearer. At least you Hakuren" I chuckled. Called
blonde grinned and walked to us, taking Razzetes hand and helped her standing
up. I followed that example and brushed off dust I knew wasn't existend. I
clearly was hesitant to look up to Frau. I bend down and picked up the hat that
had fallen down as I was thrown over by Razzete.

I turned to the noel mermaid again. " Razzete, don't be afraid. He's no bad
person. He is one of the churchs residents as of yesterday. Would you kindly
greet him, as you did with me?" I smiled at her. At first she looked insecure,
but then she nodded and smiled. I took a deep breath and turned around to Frau.
I had felt that he was staring at me, but now I saw how intense his stare was.
It sent chills down my spine, as his voice had done yesterday. Razzete looked up
to the blonde, as he finally came towards us. He had patiently waited where
Hakuren had told him to stay. Now he had understood it was ok to come near.

Razzete looked up to him, seeing how tall he was and taking a step back.
Honestly, I wanted to do the same, but she stepped on my toes. I flinched, put
my hands on her shoulders.

"It's ok. He's just kind of big." I reassured her.

"Well, bigger at Castor indeed" Hakuren added. Finally Razzete humed a few
tones. I looked up to Frau. "This is Razzete. A noel mermaid and our churchs
organist. She's shy so please be gentle." Hakuren explained. "And the brown
haired boy in front of you is the one you searched for. Bishop Mikhael" Hakuren
added after a few seconds.

Fraus full atention now was laid on me. I surpressed a big gulp, when he pointed
a finger at me.

Frau's P.O.V.:

Green orbs. Emerald green orbs, as if I was in a Forest in the middle of summer,
looked up to me. They fascinated me the moment I set my eyes on them. That silky
brown hair was exactly the one I catched a glimpse on yesterday. He was small
enough to be the one from yesterday. Beautiful enough to be a woman also.

He was small, had a tender body and was more pretty than most girls his age. He
seemed younger than me. I streched a hand towards him before I actually noticed
what I did. So I just pointed out a finger on him in the end.

"This brat here is a bishop? The one who saved me? Ok, good joke. Now, where is
my real saviour?" I grinned.

Teito's P.O.V.:

I'm sure something inside my head snapped just now. Probably I wasn't the only
one to realize that, for Razzete backed off a few steps from me and Hakuren
started to cough heavily.

Brat.

Did I think I didn't knew this man in front of me a few minutes ago? Well, I did
know him after all. I started shivering at his voice. And more at his words. An
unhealthy heat rose up my cheeks.

"Dont call me brat you pervert!" I hissed, staring at his saphire blue eyes.

Something in this situation made me happy. I had wanted to prevent this meeting
from happening, but now I didn't mind anymore.

"Who are you calling pervert, runt!" he now hissed at me.

I heard Hakurens surpressed laughing, and so did Frau. Both of us turned around
at him. He barely held his laugh, tears already in his eyes. I stared at him a
moment, then I started to chuckle myself. Finally Hakuren lost it and we just
stood there, laughing in the hallway. Razzete hummed happily, only Frau looked
irritated.

"You seem to be in a good mood, Mikhael" I heard Castors voice. Razzete already
started humming happily as Hakuren and I turned around. Frau already had seen
him from his position.

I noticed Hakuren wiping away some tears from laughter, and I myself remained
with a grin on my face. "Oh? What a rare sight to see you grinning, Mikhael. I
missed something good there, did I not?" he asked.

Hakuren and I started to chukle again, but nodded. "Well, quite the weird sight
at least." I said. Hakuren grinned. "He called bishop Makhael brat. And runt.
They hissed at each other as if they where snakes" he explained.

Well, couldn't deny that, could I?

Castors eyebrows rose up. "And you did not snap? I remember last time someone
called you that, archbishop Jio lectured you quite some time" Caster asked,
honestly surprised.

"Weeeellll... I was about to snap...? But Hakuren laughed... and suddely the
situation just seemd a bit hilarious. Can't blame him for his laughter though" I
smiled at my blonde Friend. But then I turned so I could see Frau also. I looked
at the tall blonde.

"So, I would prefer you to call me by my name. Or I'll stay with calling you
pervert" I said. He stared at me, then huffed.

"I'm no pervert." he said. I grinned. "No. Of course not. And I'm the king of
barsburgh" I stated. Again, Hakuren chukled. Of course. He knew I was no king.
At least, not the king of barsburgh, but the king of Raggs actually. Frau could
not quite follow up on Hakurens laughter, but I was sure as hell Castor catched
that.

"By the way, " I looked up to Frau. How should I call him? Oh well, whatever.
"Frau-san, how are your injuries?"

I will never forget that irritated look on Fraus face again. I felt how he
wanted to get into a defensive position. He was from the military. He din't know
how to coupe with the way the church went.

"You know my name?" I blinked at his tone. I knew he wanted it to sound
emotionless, but as I came from the military myself I was trained to notice the
faint fear. And he noticed that I heard it too.

But then again, I wasn't just a bishop since yesterday. I smiled slightly.

"Razzete, don't you want to go swim in the fountain again? You could finish that
song you promised to show me before everyone else" I smiled at her. She hummed,
took Castors arm and pulled him off. She didn't seem like it, but she was quick
to catch up with situations like that. And she was one of the few Castor didn't
complain to.

I turned to Hakuren. "Your should resume your studies. And if you do not want,
take my shift with the orphans. They asked for you yesterday. Capella likes you
very much. He draw a picture for you" I said.

Hakuren stared at me. "You know, you can just tell me to go away and let you two
alone. I wouldn't complain to that. As for Capella... I guess I'll visit the
children then. You... just stay yourself" he sighted. Then turned to Frau. "I
think we will meet again in some time. Till then" and with that he walked away.

My eyes clinged to his back, cruelly aware of Frau still staring at me. When I
turned around to him again however, there was no fear anymore. He seemed
curious.

"You know my name?" he repeated his question. I looked away for a moment, then
sighted. I started to move, sure he would follow me. I chose the inner
flowergarden where we could have a good talk and where he could relax.

"Well, you told Castor and Labrador yesterday you didn't remember anything exept
blood, black coats and military, right? So I had to give you a name" I said.

"But then again, that was such a shallow lie that I won't believe that." I lead
him up the stairs. The garden I wanted to visit was in the church, a place cared
by Labrador. He knew I would come here. I saw that on the hot water and two cups
that were upside down on the table. Also Labradors flowers for tea lay on the
table.

I lead Frau that way and watched him sit down. I turnd the cups up, put in the
flowers and poured hot water onto them. When I was sitting I could not reach
over the whole table, so I always did this kind of thing standing beside the
table.

I catched Fraus confused look as he watched the flowers in the water. I
chuckled. I had had that exact same look back when I arrived here. "Have a sip.
I'm sure it will calm you down. These flowers are special. Labrador bred them
espacially. You will get used to this eventually. You will encounter stranger
things in this church. Just wait until dinner" I grinned.

He looked at me kind of irritated, but I ignored that and sat down. I grabbed
the cup with both hands and warmed them through the leather gloves I wore. I
enyojed the silence for a bit, until I sam him taking a sip of the tea. I felt
how he relaxed some more.

Labradors flowers were really helpful, that I had to admit.

"Back to your question... Yeah, I know your name. And I know you are lying about
your amnesia. But I don't care. It's not my job to interrogate you. Your past
means nothing once you set food on god's terrain. And well, you're in the middle
of it. So, don't worry." I said calmly.

The tea tasted sweet again. Labrador once explained to me, hurt children think
it tastes sweet. And how right he was.

"Tastes sweet, hm?" I asked him with a slight smile. He looked up from the cup,
right into my eyes. I saw him staring into mine, captivated. That was a reaction
I often found by other people. He did not nod, but just stared into the cup
again.

"If one does not hear your voice, it's kind of hard to tell you're a boy.
Honestly, you irritate me" he suddelny said.

I stiffened and told myself not to explode at that comment.

"I was glad those three sexy nuns tendet to me, but honestly, I really wouldn't
mind one of them switching with you" he added, suddenly starting to grin.

Oh how I wanted to punch him for that grin. I had to remind myself being a
bishop. Bishops did not punch people. They kicked kor asses, but did not hurt
people.

"You're cute. But annoying at the same time. You are younger than me, and try to
act like an adult. That's annoying. And wha'ts with that blonde haired friend of
your's? He's a strange du-Whoooaah!"

By now I had thrown over my cup, the hot water poured all over the table and on
his lap. I was shaking with anger but tried not to explode, what was very hard.
He didn't know of my bad temper. He didn't do it on purpose... to hell with
that!

I jumped up, ready to shout at him, but I noticed Labrador coming near us,
before Frau noticed him. He was to busy cooling his lap down. But that Labrador
was here meant he saw this outcome and disturbed me before I could explode. That
was probably for the better. I stood in a normal manner when Labrador had
reached us, and he gave Frau a cold towel. As I had guessed, he had seen this
coming.

I could not even smile this time, I was just releaved I was no longer alone with
Frau. With a heavy sight I sat back down again.

Frau's P.O.V.:

It huuuuuuuuurt!

But this was probably my own fault. I had noticed this brat had a really short
temper, but I still said those things. Maybe I just wanted to tick him off
again. It felt right the last time he hissed at me. Just right. A feeling I
hadn't had in a long time.

But now I had triggered the wrong thing. A mental note to myself: do not call
Mikhael girl, neither compare him to one. Oh, and don't call him cute. Not to
mention do not insult his friends in any way. He will snap.

I tried to get the hot off of my pants, but of course, without something to cool
the heat there was nothing to be done. And then there was this cold towell. I
just grabbed it and pushed it against my lap. Then I looked up. "Oh, it's you,
dog" I said. Luckily, this guy was calm. Almost to calm, but that was ok with
me. I always have had a bad moth.

Labrador smiled at me. "Mind if I join in?" he asked. I shrugged my shoulders.
The shorty sighted relieved. I really did tick him off...

"No, go ahead Lab. I'm actually kind of gratefull for your dirsturbing for the
first time in forever..." he answered. Labrador chuckled, pulled a chair away
and sat down.

I looked at him for a moment. "You breed these weird flowers?" I asked. He
noddet. "How does the tea taste?" He asked. Seemingly both of us.

"Sweet again." That brown haired kid answered for the both of us. "I see. But I
hope it did calm you down a bit" he said. I noticed a young nun walking towards
us with a towell, another cup and another bottle of hot water. I grinned.
Perfect timing! A cute girl could reassure my mind now.

I grinned some more, but that Mikhael just waved his hands as if he would husch
away an annoying fly.

"Don't try anything, Frau-san. It's just one of Castors puppets" he said. I
looked at him in confusion, then looked closer at the nun again. He was right.
No face to be seen, and weird limbs.

"Tch!" I huffed and leaned back into my seat.

"And by the way, smoking is also prohabited on church grounds" now I really
stared at him openly.

"And wat's with-" I started.

"Porn books? Don't even try to search for them. There are none in this church."
he interrupted me.

"What a crappy place" I snorted. "But then again, how do you know so much about
my habbits and preferences?" I asked him. A had fully ignored that dog by now. I
just watched Mikhael who took the towell from that fake-nun and cleaned the
table. Meanwhile the dog poured two cups. One for him and one for Mikhael. I
waited for an answer.

"I don't plan on answering that in the near future, Frau." He just sighted. As
furious as he was moments ago he was calmn now. I watched him and Labrador
slowly sipping from their hot teas. I remembered I also had a cup, and almost
copied their movements. I instantely relaxed again. Weird tea...

"Well, now let me question you: You are wearing hand and feet cuffs. Why did the
military feel the need to restrain your movements so much? You don't seem like
someone criminal to me." Labrador now took part in the conversation. I looked at
him.

"Amnesia?" I reminded him of my state, but his smile stayed the same. So I
fainly sighted.

"I was a battle slave of the military. I always wear those cuffs if I'm not on
the battle field fighting executing criminals" I said. I was sure that brat had
known that fact already. From wherever, I had no clue. I had never heard the
name Mikhael in my life before.

"I see. So you ran away because of that?" Labrador again asked me something.
This time the thought of the occurance a few days ago, what caused me to end up
here, made me angry.

"No. Because I was pissed off of that Ayanami for ordering to kill people who
don't deserve it"

At the mention of the name Ayanami that brat flinched. I clearly saw that. And
he seemed to kind of stiffen also, but he covered it with a sip from the tea
that relaxed him quickly again.

"Ayanami... do you mean chief of staff Ayanami?" Mikhael asked. I stared at him
in fury. There was this faint paise when he spoke the name out aloud. A pause I
knew all to well. He stopped himself from using an honorable suffix.

"Yes. That very same Ayanami you seem strangely proud of" I hissed at him.

"Do you want another tea, Frau-san?" Labrador interrupted us. He smiled. Like he
always did.

"You see, as you don't have to tell us about your past and we accept you as you
am, we wish to be accepted as we am by you. You and Mikhael are quite similiar."
he said.

I snorted. "I higly doubt this statement."

Staring at the brown kid again I noticed that he seemed... hurt. He put down his
cup." It's to sweet to drink, Labrador. Do you have some other flowers for me?"
I heard him ask. Labrador nodded, stood up and went a few steps away. I watched
him pluck a flower in some distance.

"I used to be a battle slave too, Frau."

My head spinned around to look at Mikhaels green obs. And I instantely regretted
that I hissed at him before. "Everyone here has things in his or her past that
led them to the church. I'm no exeption. Please, just don't mention his name
anymore. I would kindly appreciate this." and that was all he would say to this
topic. I just knew, because Labrador was back at the table. He didn't seem like
someone who wanted everyone to know about him. No. But strangely he had talked
to me about it.

"Well then, Frau. Let's change the topic. What do you know about the barsburgh
church up to now?"

I turned my gaze to that dog.

What I knew?

Tiny little. But I had no clue that my future would bring me more knowledge over
this church and the story of the 07-Ghost as I should ever know.



                        Kapitel 3: Bittersweet memories
                        -------------------------------


I should have known my limit of sleep deprivation was nearing. Hakuren had told
me to sleep, but I didn't listen. I really should learn to listen to my friend
some more. But I was sure, Labradors calm voice and that strange tea he gave me
did their effects on me. In fact we sat there all day long till noon and talked
to Frau. More like Labrador did the talking and I just listened.

I yawned slightly, hand in front of my mouth, when I heard Fraus stomach. I was
thankfull for this disturbment, because I no longer had to listen to Labradors
calming voice. It was to calming. I hated to sleep. But he almost had made me
to. I was sure he knew that. He and Castor always seemed to know everything. And
I just couldn't get used to that.

I stood up and both of them looked at me then. Labrador smiled again. "Oh right.
It's time, isn't it?" he asked. I nodded, then looked at Frau. "It's noon
already. And I believe no one showed you the dinner hall yet, right?"

The way he looked at me now kind of confused me. Oh right. I hadn't talked to
him for a few hours now. I had Labrador do the talking. Did he though I would
ignore him? I chuckled at that thought. The same idiot I thought he would be.

Labrador also chuckled slightly. "You smile and chuckle often these days,
Mikhael" he said to me. I grinned. "Yeah right. I just can't cope with this
idiot without grinning" I vaguely explained. Frau rushed to stand up, already
hissing at me again. "I'm no idiot you brat!"

This time I grinned at him, then Labrador and I started chuckling at the same
time. "Yeah right. I think we had a similiar conversation this morning, didn't
we?" I reminded him. This morning Hakuren and I laughed at him. Now it was me
and Labrador laughing at him.

"I see, you're doing better now, Frau-san, Mikhael" a voice we knew good came
nearer. I looked up, and so did Labrador, as he was still sitting. "Good
evening, Castor" I greeted him. "I believe you came to pick us up for dinner?"
Labrador asked. Castor nodded smiling. "Yes. The sisters were worried about our
lost lamb. They said you hadn't eaten yet." he turned to Frau. The blonde
grinned. He seemed quite happy that those sisters cared for him.

It made me angry. Just a little bit, but it made me angry. "He probably thought
the food we gave him was poisonous or something like that. I told you he had a
few screws lose" I said, as I looked to Frau. I hit right on the spot it seemed.
"And just to remind you, this is a church. Do not flirt with the nuns."

I saw his grimace towards me, but just grinned. That had felt good. "Now then,
let us proceed to the dinning hall. I think at least two of us here are starving
by now" I said, before I turned towards the other bishops. Castor and Labrador
seemed strangely amused. It was probably easy to notice that everything Frau did
effected me in a way. And that I was jealous right now.

I blushed, but thankfully they ignored it. It was rare for me to eat with the
rest, but this time they did not make any comment and that relieved me. As we
proceeded to the dinning hall, most of the bishop apprentices, applicants, nuns
and other poor people gathered in the hallways and greeted us. Everyone knew us
bishops. Maybe because we three were the most outstanding with bishop Lance, who
wasn't here again. Now that I thought about it...

"Castor, do you know something about bishop Lance? How is he doing? I mean, he
left his apprentice Hakuren behind and wandered off. Again." I asked. Frau had
been following us silently. I really felt like a child surrounded by those thre
giants. But it somehow triggered my memories again. It felt right.

"He seems to be in distrikt 3 or somewhere around there, tending to the poor.
Didn't he send you messages?" Castor replied. I pulled a grimace.

"Just the usual. He misses me and the time he could pick on me. I should enjoy
it and help Hakuren since I am his senpai." I sighted. Labrador chuckled. "Oh
yeah. You were originally his apprentice weren't you?" he smiled.

I nodded. "Until he wandered off and pushed me to you, Lab. And now he left and
let's me take responsibility for Hakuren. I just don't know what that guy is
thinking." I turned to Frau. Labrador had explained him before about the
apprentices and the bishops.

"I don't know if you will ever meet bishop Lance, but be warned: he's a
narccist" I said. Castor almost grinned. "Mikhael, you should not say that.
Don't talk behind peoples back" he reminded me. I shrugged my shoulders. "Just
stating the truth. Him and Hakuren are too similiar" I meant.

"I and who?" I now heared Hakurens voice. Without turning around I answered him.
"You and bishop Lance"

"Oh yeah! We're both Beautys how ever you look at us. Bauty is a sin" he
sighted, but I felt the sparkles glittering around him. I sighted again,
entering the hall and sitting down next to the three nuns. They greeted us warm,
delighted to see both, Frau and me at the dining table.

We bishops spoke our prayer before starting to eat, Frau just watched stupidly,
but surprisingly waited until we finished it. As he put away the silver
protector above the plate, he flinched heavily.

I fully understood him. "It's fish. Eye-fish. Not human." I said without looking
at him.

"You sure...?" his voice sounded hoarse. I noddet, picked up my fork, picked an
eye-fish out of his stew, and before he was able to say something, sticked it
into his mouth. He didn't move. He didnt chew. I grinned, pulled the now empty
fork back.

"And now, start chewing. Believe me, I had the almost same reaction" I just
said, and stared at him, until he slowly started to chew. I could see his eyes
glittering, and my friends and the nuns started to chukle.

"Yeah, reminds me of you back then" Castor grinned. I nodded. "I still am not
used to these weird things. Or Labs edible flowers." Especially his weird
flowers still made me flinch everytime I was forced to eat them. Slowly but
surely the usual table-talk came up. How the day was, how the orphans did, talk
about how the sumarizing of the verses was.

I yawned again. "O dear, it seems tonight will be my duty to make rounds I
guess." Castor said. I nodded. "Yeah. Labs tea made me sleepy." I confessed. I
didn't want to sleep, but this body needed rest. And probably my mind also.
Since I came here and had become a ghost, I had stubbornly refused to sleep
normaly, not to mention my irregular eating habit. Human food had started to
taste like dust. I don't like eating dust.

"Mikhael, your food won't die. Even if you stare at it like this" I heard
Hakuren sight. My thoughts stopped and I grimaced. "Yeah... I know. So, can you
recite the verses by now?" I asked him as I pushed the plate away from me. It
was almost completely full, but I had enough of eating dust.

He shrugged his shoulders. "Almost. When bishop Lance is back he will be
surprised." I nodded. That was good to hear. The rest of the evening flew by and
after the next prayer everyone resumed their duties one last time. Frau seemed
to be exausted again. Well, he had some severe injuries, so it was
understandable. He said he would go to 'his' room and sleep a bit. It was my
room. My bed. But I didn't tell him that. For I slept in a freaking coffin to
begin with, so that that damned scythe wouldn't run wild while I was sleeping.

I watched his back as he walked down the corridor and rubbed my eyes. "I think
I'll also excuse myself for today. Lab, I'm gonna block an infirmary bed." I
didn't even wait for an answer. My arm was throbbing because of that scythe and
Labs tea had done the rest. I was finished in every way.

When I had laid down in a bed and closed my eyes, everything went black in an
instant.

"Hey, Teito. Do you want something?" a small boy asked me. In his hands two
plates with food,with a weird blue sauce. I nodded smilingly. "Thank you,
Kuroyuri. Although I'm sure you are letting me test the food you want to give
Haruse, right?" I chuckled as the pink haired boy blushed heavily.

"I-it's not like that! Ok, it is, but you are also a friend! I mean,
Ayanami-sama cares so much for you, and seems so calm ever since you became his
begleiter, that... I mean..." he startet to time I smiled mild and pattet his
head, ruffling his hair.

"It's ok, Kuroyuri. As long as I'm here, Ayanami will stay the gentle person you
got to know. I swear on my soul" I said gently. The boy nodded, gave me the
plate and we sat down together.

"Shouldn't you be helping him with his paperwork?" he asked me. He was always
curious like this. I thought about . Maybe I really should be helping him. But I
doubted that he was awake.

"He tired himself last night. I doubt he is awake now. He always does this.
Tires the hell out of me and him, and sleeps into the day. I wish I could be
like that." I sighted.

I noticed Kuroyuri stopping in his movements and looked at him. Even his ears
were red. I chuckled. Well, it was no secret that Ayanami and I were...
something like lovers. I beared Eve's soul after all and also her fealings for
him. For Verloren. And since he was human right now, he could touch me without
consequences.

I remembered the first time he kissed me out of the blue. I had slapped him and
had been as red as Kuroyuri right now. Even though Eve' memories and feelings
had started to awaken at that time, I was no good with him touching me.I had
tried to avoid him day after day. But being his begleiter, I failed utterly.

But now? I somehow got used to it. It felt good. It calmed me down. And the
others from the black hawks told me Ayanami had become calmer and less cruel. I
thought that was good. So, nothing negative to this relationship. Nothing but a
guilty conscience, which I could ignore. There was always that blonde tall man I
thought about.

"Teito? Kuroyuri to Teito, stay here" I flinched. I had drifted into my mind to
much. "I'm sorry, Lt. Kuroyuri" I apologized.

"No, it's alright. How does it taste?"

I lookedt at my plate. Chuckled. "Like the blue sauce. Like always. Take less of
it, and Haruse will love it." Kuroyuri brightened up. I liked the boy that was
smaller than me, although much stronger.

I also liked Hyuuga and Konatsu. They were friendly, and I didn't care about
them being Konatsu and I were not, but they accepted us. But I hated that Shuri
Oak, who also worked here. Thankfully I hadn't much to do with him.

I pushed away my empty plate and stood up. "Thanks for the meal, Lt. Now, I'm
off, waking up Ayanami. That jerk can work after yesterday night if I'm forced
to work." I said and Kuroyuri laughed at that.

I smiled and went away to my superiors room. The way wasn't to long and most of
the people saluted me. I ignored them like Ayanami had instructed me to. I
didn't even knock before coming in. I should have knocked. He was awake and up,
but not dressed. As I saw him like this I felt heat rising in my cheeks and
quikly closed the door.

I needend look at him to know he was grinning. Sadisticly of course. "I see you
are well and up. I assume you started with your work?" he asked.

I turned around again and leaned my back on the door. I was red as a tomato, but
I ignored that und crossed my arms."You mean your work, right? As if. After last
night you can do your work alone. And stop grinning like that!" I almosed
hissed. For god's sake, he always was like that!

I watched him put on his clothes and heard a slight chuckling from him. "For my
Begleiter you sure do love to hiss at me. Quite brave, Teito Klein"

"Serves you just right.I can't fight right after nights with you, so of course
I'm grumpy. If something happens I can't protect you to my best efford. And
sitting hurts. And in general you should be used to this already. You told me to
stop being so stiff as your begleiter. That others would show more respekt if I
did this. Now they're afraid of me and don't come near me. You could have just
told me that you don't like seeing me with others. That was so typical of you."
by now I had lost what I had wanted to say. And he knew that also.

As he finished dressing up, we left the room. Again the rest saluted, I rolled
my eyes at that. "What about Raphael's eye? Can that girl use it properly by
now?"

Ah, now he was awake. he wanted to know the news for today. I shook my head. "No
progress. Raphael seems disturbed by something and refuses to do as told.
Princess Ouka is in a vulnerable state right now. We can't push forward anymore"
I reported.

"Chairman Miroku?"

"Descendet the ship this morning. Told me to give you his regards. Stiff as
always and trying to take Mikhael from me."

"I see." was all he said to that. I accompanied him to his desk, started sorting
some papers for him and turned around to go.

"Teito." Oh I knew that tone.

"Heck no. Do your work alone." I just answered. Everybody instantly froze at my
answer. Just hyuuga laughed.

"Aya-tan was refused! Teito I love your cheekyness!" the man whith sunglasses
and candy chuckled.

"Teito." it was Ayanami again. This time I snorted. "Hell no. I hate it if you
do that!" I almost poutet, sighted and gave in. I couldn'd refuse his authority
too much. Althou I really felt like punching him right now.

An earthquake. The earth shook heavily, but I didn't want to wake up. Sleeping
after such a long time, normaly nightmares would hunt me, but it was just a
peacefull memorie this time. Whoever would wake me this time, I would kill him
barehandedly.

Of course I would not, but I wished I would. I sat up in my bed and pressed my
hand against my sleve. I had the feeling everything was spinning, and I wasn't
sure wether I could walk straight. I stayed like this a few moments and doze off
again, when the door to the infirmary was crashed open. As I looked up I saw
Hakurens panicking face.

"A kor, Mikhael! A kor and a warsfeil are inside the church!" he shouted.

"So what? Let Castor and his dool handle them. He is on duty tonight" I
answered. I had bad mood now that I was awake.

"They can't do anything. They have captured Frau and are aksing for you" he
reported.

Right, now I was in a much more worse mood that seconds before. I jumped out of
the bed, stripped of the white robes and got going. Now I just wore the typical
black clothes I had worn as a battle slave. A plain black sweatshirt and black
pants, in combination with my black leather gloves. The bandages on my right arm
and hand were itching in joy of the upcoming fight.

I rushed ahead, leaving Hakuren behind. I felt Castors preasence in my head,
leading me savely to the scene. But when I was there, Castor had saved Frau from
the enemy. I felt a relieved sight leave my lung.

"Ah, Mikhael, Hakuren woke you up I see" Castor greeted me.

"Yeah. I'll kick his ass later for that. For now... " I looked around. Frau was
sitting on a pillar a few meters away, broken puppet parts all around him. He
looked confused. But I knew he was afraid. I knew that, because I knew that very
same feeling from my first encounter with those beings of darkness. And when he
noticed I had arrived at the scene, I clearly saw some hints of anger.

He didn't believe I could fight, did he?

"Is that you, Teito?" I rose my head up at that name. At that Voice. Chills ran
down my spine. I knew that voice.

"That... really is you, isn't it? Teito Klein!" Castor looked at me, than at the
Warsfeil again.

I tried not to shiver again. "Haruse, that you?" I replied. My voice was skaking
a bit, and I was sure the rest noticed that. Hell, I couldn't hide the shaking.

"You... are alive? When you are alive, you should be at Ayanami-samas side! You
are his Begleiter, are you not?!" he shouted and finaly entered a brighter space
where we could clearly see him.

I flinched heavily at his words and bit my lip. My past. And I had just dreamed
of it.

My gaze turned to the floor. Haruse was an old friend of mine... but now he was
my enemy. "I'm not the Teito you know anymore Haruse. I'm sorry. But I switched
sides." I now said when I finnaly found my voice again.

I switched my stance from just staring at the floor to a stance with witch I had
better hold with my feet. I rose my right arm, uttered some words that became
zaiphon and ripped apart the bandages on my arm. Lastly I pulled of my gloves
and threw them to the side, near Frau.

"Take that kor and turn back, Haruse. I don't want to hurt someone dear to Lt.
Kuroyuri or Ayanami-sama." I said.

Kill your emotions, Teito. That is your weakness.

And I did kill them. I was sure my face, my eyes and my voice didn't give a hint
how miserably I was feeling right now. I knew that because Haruse flinched. This
was the me he had gotten to know. The me that had fought side to side with him.
The me he had feared as a fighter back then.

I noticed him stiffening, but not retreating.

A faint smile apeared on my lips. "Very well. I'm sorry for Kuroyuri losing you,
but I can't let you go back once this fight starts." I said.

"Heed my call, Verlorens scythe" I calmly said. something black came out of my
right arm. Something black... something dangerous. Something alive and with a
killing intend that made Frau shiver.

I was the only one that could wield the scythe, because it knew my soul and
heeded every one of my calls as if it was my own blood. I must still smell like
Veroren, because the scythe almost purred as I called it out and grabbed it.

"That... that's his sythe!" Haruse seemed shocked.

"Yeah. It was. Now this cute little guy heeds my calls, not his." I pulled the
blade nearer and caressed it a bit.

For minutes we just stood and I on the one side, Haruse and that kor on the
other side. It was an eerie atmosphere and I almost did not dare to breath.
Nothing could be heard. No cicadas in the night, no owls. Just a slight wind
brushing through the trees and makings the leafes rustle.

No one of us dared to move, waiting for the right time. Some sign that started
this fight. Some sign, whatever it would be.

"What the hell... is going on here?!" I had almost forgotten Frau. But the rest
also, until he had shouted like that. That was the sign. I dashed forward, the
scythe tighly in my hands. His rapier clashed against the blade, but allas, it
did nothing, and Haruse was pushed back. From the corners of my eyes I saw
Castor dealing with the kor.

If things stayed like this, the only thing I had to worry about was Frau.
Luckily he was sane enough to not move from that spot.

"Castor!" I shouted. "Cut the strings that lead to Haruse! They lead exacly to
Ayanami! He must not know I am here and breathing!" again my scythe and Haruses
rapier clashed. Both of us were thrown back. He clashed into the nearest pillar,
and I barely got hold of the floor until I would have crashed into Frau. I
pulled back the scythe, staggered and almost fell. I was standing right in front
of Frau, ready to protect him with everything I got.

The black scythe was drooling all over as it noticed Frau. The weapon, being
alive and with an own consience turned to the blonde. I squeezed the shaft.
"Don't even think about that, little bastard. You're not allowed to touch Frau.
He's mine." I spitted out. The weapon hissed at me, but turned around again. It
started behaving strange and I threw it against the floor.

"Shut up. You can have the kor and Haruses soul. Be satisfied with that or I
will really seal you forever!" I growled.

"I see, you can't control it, Teito... well, it isn't yours to beginn with" My
gaze went up. Haruse was standing again already. But I just smirked.

"You're wrong. This is mine. Ayanami... no... Verloren also belongs to me. Only
to me." I stated with a confidence I didn't have.

"You... insolent betrayer!" he screamed, launching at me blinded by wrath.

I smiled. That was right... this was the way things were at this time. I... had
betrayed him. I had betrayed them all. I didn't even notice the way I clenched
my hands around the shaft of the scythe. It launched foward on it's own accord
as if it did sense my feelings. And maybe he did.

Haruse leaped forward to me, defending against the scythe and building a zaiphon
atack at the same time.

I didn't see that coming. I pulled my other arm up to shield me, build a shield
out of zaiphon, but then, everything went black.



                              Kapitel 4: Warsfeil
                              -------------------


Fraus P.O.V.:
 
"You dare to try and hurt my master?" Wait, that was  Mikhaels voice. And  yet
it was not.
 
Fuck that damn dust everywhere around me! And anyway, what the heck  happened
moments ago!? I coughed, and that made my chest hurt. Besides, my  whole body
did hurt by now, because I was so full of tension.
 
I tried to see clearly, but the dust just got more into my eyes. Coughing  like
this, lying on the floor and without clear sight... I fest miserable. I 
couldn't fight. 
 
I was used to fighting, but not to being protected. 
 
And then there was this brat that obviously wanted to protect me.
 
That... really weird brat. Just what the heck was going on there?! I  crawled
back a bit, but touched something. No, someone. 
 
"Oh~ Haruse, it's you! However... I will not  tolerate anyone who hurts my
master. You of all people should know that"
 
 
"Sh. Don't talk. And don't move. Otherwise Mikhael will really  snapp if he
can't protect us because we foolishly moved away." that was  Hakurens voice near
my ear. I flinched, but nodded. I wasn't sure when he had  arrived, but I had to
confess to myself, it releaved me, not being the only one  at the sidelines. We
heard metal clashing against metal and zaiphon attacks  being launched, but the
dust cleared much to slowly to see enough. Just sparks  lighting up there and
then, and sometimes zaiphon crashing against the ceiling.
 
A few minutes later I was sure that both were breathing heavily. And  that more
kors had shown up. That four-eyes seemed quite busy. He was holding  off quite
the amount of kors by now. It was loud. Why did nobody else notice  there was a
fight going on here!?
 
And then, something crashed down right in front of Hakuren and me. A  small,
slender figure. Mikhael.
 
"What... the..." I started holding my breath. He was bloddy  all over. And
didn't move. Hakuren clenched his fists. "Don't touch him. Don't  talk to him.
Don't disturb him." he said. It seemed more like he was  reminding himself. But
I understood. Fighters should not be disturbed in their  fights. That could be
life threatening. I knew that all to well from first-hand  experience.
 
But that kid did not look like he could  fight anymore. And here I was, an adult
and bigger and older than him... being  protected. And still afraid.
 
Footsteps woke me out of my thoughts, as that warsfeil walked closer. Mikhael 
still didn't move, but the scythe did. It swung around like mad, charging after 
the enemy and crashing into the walls or the floor. I noticed that everywhere 
around Hakuren and me the floor was drenched in carved-in zaiphon words. I 
didn't even notice that atacks had been launched at me. Did that kid take on 
all of them head on?
 
"Idiot!" I hissed, nothing more than a whisper.
 
"Do not call my master an idiot. Especially not  you, for he is already crying
enough deep inside. Insolent fool."
 
My eyes widened as I heard those words and watched him sit up. He shook  his
head and rubbles and dust left his now not-anymore-silky hair. And he held  his
head. It really seemed to throb, as I saw tears rolling down his cheek.  No...
there was no sign of pain in his green... wait, red eyes. 
 
That was not the Mikhael I had gotten to know. That damned brat had  green eyes.
This one had eyes red as blood and they were almost glowing in  anger, as he
wiped away the tears that weren't his to beginn with. These tears  belonged to
the kid bishop. This one was a fighter. He would never cry. For he  resembled
me. 
 
"Then stop his suicidal act and I will stop calling him idiot"  I said, and
grinned slightly as he threw me an angry gaze. That scythe was  still running
wild, but as he slowly stood up it came back to him like it was  called. That
guy waited for a few seconds, than lowered his upper half and  dashed forward.
He was to quick for me to see. But I saw the blood that  splattered down next to
me and Hakuren. I wasn't sure if it was Mikhaels or  that Haruse's. But it was
quite the amount of blood.
 
My gaze turned from the blood to the ongoing battle, and I saw that  Mikhael did
not seem to well. He was staggering, as well as his enemy. Who  lifted an arm
and formed a cyrcle of zaiphon. And another cyrcle right into the  first. A
hidden atack? As that guy released the cyrcle and it turned into dust,  I felt
something was off.
 
It wasn't launched at that kid. 
 
It was launched at me.
 
I felt like I turned into an ice sculpture. I couldn't move, and neither  did
the blonde teen next to me. We didn't see that attack coming. Helpless like 
newborn babies we just sat there. 
 
The moment I thought I would die was the longest second in my life. I  could
already see the sniplets of my past life, when I felt the impact. 
 
But it was just strong wind. 
 
No energy worth the zaiphon he trew at me hit me. 
 
It hit Mikhael, standing right in front of us. Back turned to the enemy,  arms
away. Even the scythe seemed to whince at that attack and there was steam 
comming from Mikhaels burned back as he fell to his knees. I stretched my hands 
towards him, grabbing his shoulders.
 
"Hey! Didn't I ask you to stop  the suicidal act!?" I hissed at him. That looked
bad. Really bad. As his  upper body fell over a bit more I saw that the clothes
on his back had almost perished.  I saw the churchs simbol engraved on his
spine, and not far away on his lower  back the slave mark. So he did not lie
back then. His skin had many minor scars  that looked old and from much force,
but more that resultedt in this fight.
 
And he looked worn out. But I felt him shivering under my hands.  Shivering from
madness. He rose his head, looking me straight into my eyes and  lifted a hand
to my cheek. His hand was cold. Freezing cold. I stared at him in  confusion.
 
"Thank god you and Hakuren are alright. He would  not forgive me if I let
anything happen to you"
 
"What are you talking about, look at yourself already!" I  shoutet in anger. But
he just chuckled, took his hand away from my skin and put  it on the floor to
lift his body up. There was a strange red stone apearing on  his backhand. I
knew that stone. It was the long lost Eye of Mikhael. So thats were the name
originated from.
 
He stood up and turned around to that Haruse guy. I looked up to his  back were
I watched in astonishmend how... wings... grew out his back. Angel  wings. White
feathered angel wings.
 
"You tried to hurt my masters most precious  person. I could have coped with you
hurting that damned four-eyes  Fest.... But you chose to hurt Frau instead. I 
cannot forgive you anymore. For all the tears my master will shed... I can't 
let you escape unpunished, in the name of Zehel" 
 
Wait, I thought he would snap if Hakuren was injured. But instead.. it  was me?
Something somewhere went  terribly wrong.... I didn't even know him really! So
how could I be his most precious person!? What the hell!?
 
"Your master, Teito, betrayed Ayanami. He betrayed him and turned  to that weak
guy over there. It's him who should be punished!" The enemy  shouted. I felt the
anger of Mikhael rising from where I was.
 
"HE DID NOT BETRAY HIM! THAT VERLOREN WAS ALL  MY MASTER WANTED! ALL HE HAD AND
WHEN HE DIED THAT DAY HE LOST EVERYTHING THAT  MADE UP HIS WORLD! YOU KNOW
NOTHING ABOUT MY MASTER! PERISH ALONG WITH YOUR  FOOLISHNESS!" 
 
Wow, now he seemed mad. Something that reminded me of bones came out of  the red
stone, pierced that other guy and pinned him to the wall. Along with  that,
Mikhael swung the scythe and cut through that guy. 
 
"May you repent in hell for your foolish behaviour,  warsfeil." 
 
Mikhael watched the body of the warsfeil perish, then looked at Castors  battle.
But he still seemed extremely mad and swung the scythe again, killing  some kors
in one strike. Or at least he cut their strange wings. I watched him  force the
scythe back into his arm and how the bone like sculpture from the  stone also
withdrawed. Then he came to me. I flinched as I saw the anger in his  eyes. He
was mad at me. Seriously mad...
 
He kneld down right before me, grabbed my chin and looked at my face  from every
angle. He also looked at the rest of my body, but luckily not this  forcefull.
"Hey.. I'm alright ok? Nothing hurt me" I reassured him. 
 
"Thank godness! I don't know what I would have  done otherwise." he said. Then
he turned to Hakuren. "You  also alright?" 
 
I turned around a bit. Hakuren grinned and nodded. "Yeah, I'm  alright. Seems
like your master is running mad inside you" he pointed  towards Mikhael. "You're
crying an blushing at the same time. He's still  awake in there, isn't he?" the
blonde chuckled.
 
Mikhael touched his cheeks, and wiped away the tears. "Only  half. He shut down
when he was called betrayer. He's crying ever since. And mad  at me for touching
this guys skin. "
 
"I'm extremely confused now. Will someone explain this to me in the  next
hours?" I sighted and brushed through my hair. Right then I saw  Castor walk
towards us. Looked like he also finished exterminating the kors. 
 
"I believe this will be a bit difficult. You could see the scythe,  couldn't
you? And I believe you also saw my ghost form. I will have to erase  your
memories"
 
"Don't." Mikhael said. Seems like they  weren't going to ask me, so I stayed
quiet.
 
"Master does not wish for that. Anything going against  his wish is considered
as treason towards him by me, Fest. You don't  want me as an enemy, believe me"
 
Castor narrowed his eyes and seemed angry, but sighted. "You didn't  plan on
hiding anything from him, did you, Mikhael?"
 
"Everything as master wishes. He already lost to  much. I wont let him be
betrayed again. Chose for yourself to be friend or  enemy. But chose well."
 
Again castor sighted, but seemingly gave in. "Whatever, just give  Teito back to
us, will you? He needs rest, and therefore he needs his coffin.  Or that scythe
will run wild after tonight."
 
"I would be delighted to go, but master can't  walk straight anymore. So," his
gaze turned to me again.
"You. You take him to his room and put him in his  coffin, understand!?" 
 
"Yes sir" I nodded. It was just a reflex, but he nodded,  content to my answer.
Then the stone went back into his hand, the wings  dispersed into the whit
feathers and the blood red eyes were replaced by  emerald green orbs, that
instantly closed and the tender body fell right into my  arms. I catched him
without another thought.
 
"Don't take Mikhael to serious, Frau... he's too stiff" I  heared him whisper.
Then he blacked out.
 
"Ok... and where do I find his room and coffin?" I asked the other Bishop.
 

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
 
It was the second day after the incident when they finaly told me to take  that
brat out of the coffin. He had sleept through these two days without any  sign
of being alive. But the two bishops didn't seem concerned, so I restrained  from
asking them. They had told me to wait until that kid wanted to tell me 
everything. 
 
I pushed away the top of the coffin and looked at him. He was still pale  as
ever, but the dark circles under his eyes weren't there. Some of his wounds 
also looked better. I instantely wished I had his healing abilitys.
 
"He's still asleep" I said. 
 
"It's ok, just take him out and bathe him" Labrador said. I  nodded, but then I
froze.
 
"Wait... I should bathe him? Why? Can't he do that when he is  awake?" I was
strangely nervous with the task he gave me. But he just  shook his head.
 
"No. He will sleep some time longer, but I have to look after his  injuries now.
Although he is one of the ghosts, his wounds are bad and could be  infected. He
took to much impact and dark energy of the warsfeils black arts.  But I can't
look after his wounds like that" he explained. That made  sense. He was dusty
all over, his clothes were torn and I couldn't differenciate  between filth and
wound.
 
"But why me?" I tried again.
 
"Castor refuses to help. He seems angry at Mikhael. I will prepare  everything
for the wounds and Hakuren skipped his bascul training the last two  days. And
also, Mikhael isn't good with the nuns washing him" he calmly  added to his
explaination.
 
I gave in at that. He seemed like a rather shy boy, so it didn't  surprise me
that he avoided the sisters touch. So I shoved my arms under his  tender body
and heaved him up. In the bath I undid his clothes, strangely  fascinated with
the skin under them. But I again noticed his coldness. As I  leaned his body on
my knee to observe him in full, I laid my hand on his chest.  There was no
heartbeat. So he really was a ghost. A living corpse. I decided to  let water
into the bathtub and wash him in there. He would surely apreciate the  warmth.
Even if he was asleep. 
 
As I turned off the water and put him into the tube, I still could not  turn my
gaze away. He had such a fair complexion. He was small and light.  Tender and
with a pale skin, that didn't look too unhealthy when he was awake. He  had the
most beautiful eyes I had ever seen and a strong gaze. He was kind,  gentle and
full of emotion, although he was short tempered. He really seemed to  care for
his friends. 
 
I took a clean towel and let it soak in the water, then started to sofly  clean
his body. His face, his arms, his hands. He had slender fingers, although  I
could feel how much he had fought. I carressed his chest until it was clean  and
unintentionally started to count the small scars all over his body. I wiped 
down to his hips and stomach, but there were lesser wounds. 
 
I stopped here. I had started to slightly blush, cleaned my throat and  quickly
got over with the rest and his back. Later looked the most painfull to  me. I
let his body stay in the warmth a bit before I lifted him up and packed  him
into a clean and big, white towell. Then I at least put him on some pants. 
There were no wounds in that area and... Labrador had no reason to see him 
fully exposed. 
 
As I left the bathroom with the boy, Labrador chukled. I laid him on the  bed,
scratched the back of my head, kind of insecure about the situation and  stepped
back until I felt the wall on my back. I leaned on it and crossed my  arms. This
whole situation felt weird. Aside from the fact that this  almost-still-child
protected me with all his might, he was actually already dead  as it seems. But
although I knew that, I still felt weird. I shouldn't think an  actually dead
person was this attractive. Especially not a boy. I was into  girls damn it!
 
Labrador pulled of his gloves. He also had a strange mark on the back of  his
hand. So I had met three of the seven ghost by now. I wasn't all to happy  about
that, but this guy was the least of them I thought about. As he put his  hand on
Mikhaels forehead it started to glow strangely. I recognized the  feeling of
zaiphon from it.
 
"You also use zaiphon?" I asked him. He didn't seem like a  fighting type at
all. From the beginning I never thought that bishops could  fight at all.
 
"Yes. The bishops zaiphon is always over average. To use the  bascule properly
and to exterminate kors, only prayers aren't enough. And there  are not only
kors, but warsfeil, like that night. Although  I'm the healing type and Mikhael
is the  offensive type, the though with wich you use your powers are important.
One  shall not use god's powers to destroy, but to protect."
 
"It's not god's power. It's mine. I don't believe in a god anymore.  A god that
does not prohabite slavery and starving is no god." I  whispered. I was aware
that Labrador had heard me, but his smile stayed. He slowly  started to piss me
off with that attitude of his.
 
"So, how is he?" I brsukely asked to change the topic.
 
"He will be fine. He still needs some rest, but his wounds are not  infected and
are healing properly. If he isn't haunted by nightmares and sleeps  at least
until tommorow evening, things will be fine" he explained to me. 
 
"Well, I think the ' not having any nightmares' part is not gonna  work. He's
sweating a lot and getting paler again." I pushed myself away  from the wall and
steped to the bed, next to his head. A moment I just stared  at him, then I sat
down on the side of the bed. Labrador put on his gloves  again and turned to the
coffin of this brat. He put a glas on it, pured cold  water in it and added some
small seeds. I watched in surprise how some flowers  grew in an instant. They
quikly emmited a strange smell I didn't recognize. But  it wasn't bad, so I
didn't ask what it was for. Maybe to get the brat better in  less time. 
 
"Just let him rest. Sooner or later he will wake up. Try not to  make to much
noise. I'm off for now. Don't forget to take care yourself. You're  still
injured yourself after all" with this he left.
 
I knew I was still injured, but the wounds didn't throbb anymore and the 
bandages didn't get wet or bloddy also. I felt quite good actually. But
Mikhael..  or was I Teito? I had no idea how I should call him now, didn't seem
so good.  Rather the opposite. His body was full of tension and the fresh
bandages looked  as if they would cut into the skin, but did not seem to disturb
his breathing.
 
As I looked at him, lying on the bed like this, I felt miserably again.  The
bandage on his right hand had been done right after the fight. Castor said  it
was just an addition to the seal and he had his arm always in bandages. But  he
had cuts and bruises all over his upper half and on his legs. His complete 
chest and back was bandaged tightly, his shoulder was in a suportive bandage 
and the bandage around his forehead was already a little rose coloured. The 
wound must have been opened when Labradou desinfected it. 
 
I looked at the flowers on top of the coffin again to distract myself  from him,
but everything else seemed totaly boring. So I found myself gazing on  him
again, half an hour later. He was still dreaming it seemed. By now I could  hear
mourns of uneasyness and he was grabbing the blanked beneath him with all  his
might. I couldn't let him sleep like that. I knew enough about nightmares 
myself to let him endure this any longer. So I kneld down on the side of his 
bed and looked at him like this, almost gently slapping his cheek.
 
"Hey, kid. Wake up. You're having a nightmare" I said, loud  enough that I
thought it would reach him. It didn't. "Hey. You really  wanna stay in your
cruel or weird or whatever crappy dream you're having right  now? I said wake
up, brat" I tried again. Slowly his breathing was getting  more relaxed and I
felt the tension leaving his muscles.
 
"Yes, just like this. Leave that dream and look at me."  because if he was
awake, he would have a hell of a lot to explain to me!
Both of my hands were lying on his cheeks now. I slightly smiled as I  saw him
slowly opening his emerald green eyes. He seemed disoriented but not  all too
surprised about the position we were in.
 
"Awake now?" I smiled. He didn't answer. He rose an arm and  put his hand right
over my heart, now looking right into my eyes. Maybe he  wasn't really awake
just yet. He looked kinda cute.
 
"Give me..." His voice was very low, but I was near enough to  understand him. 
 
"Give? Give what? A 'good morning kiss' ? If it's you I seriously  wouldn't
mind!" I big, evil grin was on my lips now. I somehow really  liked to pick on
him.
 
"Give me... your soul"
 
Wait, what!?



                         Kapitel 5: Give me your Soul!
                         -----------------------------


 
Haha.... That was supposed to be a joke, right? I mean... my soul? He  was
supposed to be a priest. Dead... but a priest. And how the heck was I even
supposed to give it to him? I can't just  rip it out, right?
 
Seconds ago I had been kneeling above this kid, but I didn't thought he  was
able to move like he did, when he grabbed my shoulders, rushed up, spun me 
around and pushed me down. So our positions were awkwardly reversed. I was 
dumbstruck at this and didn't move. What was I to do? Was this a joke? How 
should I react? How was he so fit?
 
I just stared at him, searching for the moment when our gaze might met.  But I
didn't see any joke in these eyes. They weren't even here. His gaze went  right
through me, searching... longing for something. But was it the longing of 
someones touch? Or for the person himself? Either way, he was hungering for it.
 
Before I was able to decide on how to react, I felt his hand moving from  my
shoulder to my chest, right above my heart, which steadily started to speed  up.

 
"Give it to me... allow me to take your soul" he whispered. I  should allow him?
 
"Hell no!" I uttered hastily, but I couldn't say anything  more. His fingers
started to sink into my skin, further down into my flesh,  without really
wounding me. I moaned in pain. It burned! It hurt so much that I  pushed him
away from me. His look changed into such desperation that it made me  shiver. He
looked like he would dissapear any moment, if I wouldn't give in.
 
"If I promise you myself, will you return to being sane?" I  asked, but gulped
right after. These words had just slipped out of my mouth  without thinking.
Teito above me nodded. I was not sure whether to let down my  defense or not,
but I just sighed toneless and did it. He pushed his fingers  against my skin
again, but this time he didn't do the strange thing he had done  before. His
fingers didn't seep in, and he looked quite confused and unsettled.  
 
I was thankful. It had hurt before and I didn't know why I agreed in the 
beginning. I looked at the hand on my chest and felt the slight pressure on my 
skin, but he didn't do anything, but staring at this spot. His mind seemed to 
clear up, but his strengh gave in and he fell over, right on me. 
 
Well, I was wondering how he was so fit... but obviously he wasn't and  had
overstrained his body for now. 
 
"Frau..?" I heard his voice. Teitos voice, without a doubt.  Mikhaels conceited
tone wasn't in it.
 
"Yeah. Concious again? Not trying to eat my soul anymore?"
 
"No... I think I won't"
 
"Thank god. You kinda creeped me out there. Didn't know what to  do" I
confessed. For a while he was silent, staying where he was.
 
"Did Labrador put any weird flowers into the room?" I heard  his low voice. I
remembered the glas Lab had put on the coffin and looked at  it. The flowers had
started to grow out of the glas and spread all over the  black coffin. And they
were blooming like there was no tomorrow.
 
"Yeah. They're blooming really enthusiasticly" I replied.
 
"I see. I have to thank him later. The scent of those flowers seeps  into human
skin and makes it momentarily unable to be hurt through the powers  of a ghost.
I can't take your soul because of them." he explained. I  looked at the flowers
again. I didn't smelll them anymore. Seems I got used to  them already. 
 
"You promised yourself to me. In body and mind and soul. What the  hell were you
thinking, giving yourself up to someone you don't even  know!?" I felt his nails
scratching over my skin and flinched.
 
"Ow! Stop that, brat!" I hissed. "I thought you couldn't  hurt me right now!?"
 
"At least not through the power as a ghost. My nails are my own,  idiot! Answer
me! Why did you give yourself away so easily!?" 
 
I sighted. "Beats me" was the only thing I could answer.
 
"What!?"
 
"Like I said, I don't have a clue. You looked so desperate... like  you would
dissapear right this instant if I were to stop you again. As If you  would
breake down.... and that Mikhael called me your most precious person so... so I
guess I thought you wouldn't  hurt me and just return to be the bad tempered
brat I got to know when I agreed  to be yours" I pressed a hand against my
forehead. I really had no idea  what I was talking about. "Maybe I thought that
dying through your hand  would be fine. Like I said, I don't really now. I
answered before thinking.  "
 
"So you decided to give yourself to me? You're strange, Frau"  I laughed when he
said that.
 
"I guess I can't really denie that. But hey. You're supposed to be  dead, right?
I can't feel a heartbeat or pulse. You're cold as ice If I didn't  let you soak
in the warm water... And you're one of the seven ghosts. You have  a weird split
personallity with that Mikhael in your hand... and a big scythe  in your arm
that seems quite lively for a mere weapon. And you tried to eat my  soul. Which
one of us is weirder, hm?"
 
"Oh...... point for you" I felt him pulling a grimace, as his  head laid right
over my heart.
 
"Do  you want to stay like  this?" I asked. He didn't look like he could move.
But then again, he  surprised me with moving a few minutes ago. I felt him
nodding slightly. Guess  he wanted to listen to my heartbeat and enjoy my
warmth, so I let him stay  where he was. He didn't weight much and it wasn'tt a
bad feeling having him on  top of me like this.
 
"So? Will you explain things to me? I mean... I understood that  these... beings
at the attack were.. kors, right?"
 
"Yes. Like Labrador explained. Kors are perople who give their soul  to the
darkness in order to have three wishes fullfilled. The Kors slowly take  over
the mind of the host, and the host will never be able to be satisfied once  a
wish has been granted through a kor."
 
"Ok. So the things that four-eyed fought against were kors." I  summed up.
"And... that guy you fought against?"
 
"He was a warsfeil. it was someone born into the lineage of  warsfeil. He was
born like this . A wars on the other hand is the result of a  person, having
been granted all three wishes. They are nothing more than a  moving coprse
feeding on human souls." Teito explained.
 
"Huh? They can be born? And were do they origin anyway?" I  asked. We werent
much into the topic and I already felt like a huge idiot. 
 
" 'At the begining there was heaven and earth'" he said.
 
"Isn't that a verse of the bible?" I said, after thinking  about it for a while.
He nodded. 
 
"God, also known as 'chief of heaven', governed over the souls. He  had a
daughter, called Eve who he loved the most. And he had created an  exstence
called 'Verloren'. He was a perfect being governing over all the  souls. The
lost ones... the right ones. He brought them to their resting  places. And he
handled each soul equally with a gentle care, so that the  balance on earth and
heaven would not be destroyed. But.. he was never to touch  anyone alive.
Because he was govering ofer the 'dead', he was pure 'death' to  every living
being. Would he touch someone alive, that someone was sure to die.  But since he
was not able to feel love or hate, that didn't matter to him"  Teito started.
 
"Sounds lonely" I just said.
 
"He didn't know what it meant to feel lonely. Until he met Eve, the  chiefs
daughter. She was... cheerful. Kind and gentle. Beautiful and blessed  with all
the emotions he hadn't. But she would always get lost, where ever she  was. The
first time they met he didn't know how to handle her, for she was  alive. And he
was being made of bones and with a dark cloak. Everyone had been  frightened of
him; but she had such a radiance... that he started to feel  lighthearted in her
presence. Which was weird, for he was created without a  heart to feel. And he
started to feel love. He fell in love with her. Without  being able to ever tell
her or someone else. Because he was govering over  'death' and could never be
what she needet."
 
"I'm starting to feel pity for him" I pulled a grimace.  "So that Verloren loved
Eve. But wasn't he created perfect? Balance can  only be held up without any
feelings." I asked.
 
"Yeah... that's what the chief said. 'I detected a bug in you. You  must be
disposed of.' he said. 'You're dangerous like this. You will be held in  a
special prison until I find a way to correct the error in you'"
 
"But that's cruel!" I exclaimed.
 
"Yes... it was. He hadn't done anything and yet... Verloren agreed  on being
held imprisoned. He did not feel the need to talk back to his creator.  He was
the chief;  he was right in  everything he did. So he was brought into a tower,
specially build to imprison  him and his powers. And he waited there, patiently
until his creator felt the  need to call upon him. But when Eve got ahold of
this situiation she was  furios. She came to love him, and had a dispute with
her father. She held the  believe that love and hate wasn't bad."
 
"But it would interfere with his work.. and destroy the balance,  right? You
can't handle everyone equaly if you have feelings" I cocluded  and felt him nod.
 
"So, Eve turned herself away from her father, the chief of heaven,  and went to
Verloren. She tricked the guards and went to him, to get him out of  there..."
he fell silent for a moment. "But he refused. He said he  wouldn't escape. After
she screamed at him in tears, for his foolisch behaviour  and his fathers
coldheartedness. And she hurt him. He didn't want her in  danger, for he felt
the constant urge to touch her. But that would kill her.  Her loud voice,
however alarmed the guards. They rushed in and shot at them. He  stood in front
of her. Wanted to protect her. But the guards continued shooting  at them. And
then there was this one shot that would have meant his death. He  hadn't cared.
His creator had disposed of him anyway. But she threw herself in  front of
him... "
 
"Was she killed by the guards?" I asked. It was nothing more  than a whisper I
made.
 
"More or less. She was proed to have protected him. But she was  weak and fell
down. He reached out for her, seing her smiling face.And tears.  And when he
catched her, just out of reflex... he only held her bones. He had  not wanted to
kill her. It wasn't his fault. She died out of her own will and  with a smile.
But the chief of heaven was furious. He blamed Verloren for her  death. He had
killed her. So, in a frenzy, he wanted to kill his most perfect creation.  But
Verloren had lost everything dear to him. The one who taught him how  precious
live is. What it meant to feel. And something inside of him snapped.  He escaped
to earth with Eves body. But when he fell to earth, where he was not  supposed
to be, his evilness and his wicked feelings towards the chief and  himself
scattered all over the world, manifesting as the beings we know as kors  and
wars. And he lost Eve. He lost her when he fell to earth... lost the last  he
had of her. And he decided to eat every single soul until he found her.  That's
why the kors and warsfeil are gathering souls."
 
"And... the seven ghost?"
 
"We're fragments of Verloren. The chief was upset and created  beings able to
fight the wicked Verloren. Out of the fragments from him. That's  why were
inferior to him. We are nothing but mere copies of him. He chose to  destroy
him, but Verloren couldn't be destroyed. He was perfect. So they  devided him
into two parts: the core and the body. And he gave two gods of  equal power to
the humans that would seal the two parts. The eye of Mikhael who  guardet the
body, and the eye of Raphael, wichh guardet the soul. The body was  sealed into
the 'Pandoras Box' and watched over by the yeven ghost, so that  Verloren would
never be able to return to his existence ever again." Teito  had finished.
 
"It doesn't look like he is sealed however. And why do you know so  much about
it? I mean, the time before he fell. Is it common knowledge of the  ghosts?" He
had caught my interest.
 
"No, it's not. I mean, it's not sealed anymore. The seal was set  free on his
mind accidentaly. The eye of Raphael was being brainwashed and  didn't reember
it's original mission anymore, so the wielder didn't know. When  she encountered
Verlorens reincarnation she released the seal and set free his  memories. So,
Verloren returned, however, just with bits of his original power.  And that
reincarnation is the person, now known by the name of Ayanami" he  said.
 
So... oh fuck. Verloren was back with his hatred and starting to riot on  the
eaarth again because some bitch was brainwashed and released the seal that  was
supposed to prevent this? Didn't sound good to me, but it explained  Ayanamis
cold heart, his icy gaze and his merciless comands. 
 
"And... why do you know so much about this all?" I repeated my  question. He
didn't answer at first. 
 
"Im Zehel of the seven ghost?"
 
"You're a horrible liar" I just replied with a light chuckle.
 
".... I'm... the bearer of Eve's soul, that fell down to earth with  Verloren
together" I was almost not able to understand him, as he spoke so  low. My eyes
opened wide and I used my elbows to sit up slightly, so I could  take a good
look at him. His eyes were closed but I would have bet that they  were stained
with pain.
 
"Thats not all. I'm also the wielder of the eye of Mikhael as you  saw, but at
the same time I myself am Pandoras Box. When I was still just a  toddler, I
nearly died. That's when I was made into Pandoras Box. To save me,  there was
just one solution: to implant the eye of Mikhael into me. The  reightous heir of
the kingdom of Raggs : Wahrheit Tiasche Raggs." 
 
I wanted to say something, but he continued before I could.
 
"That was when the war between Barsburgh and Raggs started. My  father was
killed and I travelled around with my uncle who was one of the seven  ghost at
that time. But... at some point, we were caught and he got killed.  Before, he
sealed my memories of my origin and of the eye, to protect me from  the
military. I, who had forgotten everything, was found by Ayanami at that  time.
He brought me to chairman Miroku, who took me in as a battle  slave....  For
years I fought and killed  many prisoners as I was told. Then I entered the
military academy and was  introduced to Mikage... he was everything for me, but
our ways soon parted. I  graduated at the top of my class, but Mikage was...
killed. When I was apointed  as Ayanamis begleiter I was upset. Just so upset...
but the black hawks work almost  outside of the law. I saw my chance to take
revenge for him by joining them.  But the more I was together with Ayanami, the
more the seal on my memories  broke. And not only the seal on my own... but on
Eve's memories as well. There  was... so much confusion inside me.... so much...
hatred towards him from  myself... and so much love towards him from Eve. I had
the feeling, everytime I  saw him, it would tear me apart. I tried to hate him.
I tried so god damn hard to hate him! But.. you  know? How was I supposed to
hate someone who was equally hurt as me? Over  thousands of years he had lost
people precious to him, and he remembered every  single one of them. And... he
cared so much for his comrades. It's so hard to  hate someone who handled you
with care... who tells you that you could not be  replaced by anyone. It's  so
hard to hate  someone who has such sad eyes when he thinks he is alone...
someone who thinks  equally of you, although you were raised to be a mere
sklave! It's so god damn hard!" 
 
I had long fallen silent. I didn't know what to feel. This kid had gone  through
much more than I. And I could never understand his relationship with  Ayanami.
It was not my right to judge or blame him. But I felt horrible that he  started
crying. I laid down again and put my now free arms around him,  carefully
carresing his back.
 
"When... when our relationship started to build I was so... so  confused... I
had no idea what was going on. I meant, I was supposed to hate  him, right?
Then, why did every slight smile of him feel so good? Why did I  long for more
than just his gaze on me? Why didn't I interrup when he kissed  me? Why did I
have the feeling that this was mine, and not Eves? That wasn't  right... but it
felt so right. Every single word from him... both of our  memories had
awakened... he was not the Verloren of the past anymore. He could  touch me. I
wouldn't die... It was... so perfect when he was more gentle to  everyone else
than before. It could have stayed like this. It could just have  stayed like
this" he sobbed. I still caressed his back, up and down. 
 
I felt so fucking miserable just now. Damn that Ayanami. I still hated him.  Now
even more than before. I had no fucking clue whatsoever why I hated him  more
than ever. "What happened then?" I asked as he had calmed down a  little.
Talking about it would make him feel better. People always said,  talking about
it makes it easier, right?
 
"Father interfered" he whispered. "I mean... the chief of  heaven. He made
Mikhael show me, what would have happened if other decisions  had been made. If
Frau had chosen to become a bishop after Guidos death. You  would have been
Zehel. You would wield the scythe now. And I on the other hand  would have fled
the army when meeting Ayanami when I was about to graduate. I  would have been a
deserter, but would have ended up here in this church. Been  taken care of by
you, Castor and Labrador. You would never have ended up as a  sklave. Not forced
to kill other people like a battle sklave. Everything had  taken an other turn.
Mikage would still have been killed, but he would have  died with a smile. I
would only be an apprentice bishop, and would travel with  Frau to the land of
seele. Our relationship would have been..." he stopped  here, and I knew what he
was about to say, without him speaking in out loud. We  would have a
relationship like... lovers. Or something like that.
 
"At least the feelings, but not... with the kissing and such. I  don't know,
it's complicated. And when I saw this other possible timeline... I  was just
constantly thinking of Frau. Just when I thought I was ok with my  feelings
toward Ayanami, the feelings toward you were awoken. And I didn't even  know
you! But I felt so guilty all the time! .... Ayanami  noticed, so when I told
him he was upset, because the chief had interferred  once again in his life. In
a frenzy we just started to shout at each other. It  was the firt time someone
ever had a real dispute with Ayanami. Since then  people were afraid of me,
because I stubornly told him my thoughts about him. I  wasn't... nice I confess.
But he deserved someone who could be honest with him.  This topic always floated
between us, never really solved. The day before I  died we tried talking about
it again, but just ended up fighting again. The  next day, a malfunktion of
Raphael caused our ship to chrash down. I saved him  and his best friend Hyuuga
without thinking.But it tuned out not to be an  accidant. Raphaels malfunction I
mean. Enemies of the empire... former Raggs  people managed to seperate me from
the group. Thinking I was a warsfeil of the  black hawks and a fiend of the new
Raggs movement they... beheaded me. Hyuuga  came just then, sent by Ayanami.
Because of the soul link he saw everything. I  could see his feelings. It was so
painfull. But I thought it was ok dying like  this, because they had treatened
me to bring out Ayanami in exchange of my  life. What fools were they to kill
their own king. But... I died saving my  friends." he finished.
 
"But you didn't die. You reincarnated as one of the seven  ghost." I said. I
felt him nodding again, how he started to shiver again  and to sob.
 
"Yes. I reincarnated as Zehel of the seven. The post that reminded  me the most
of you. As.. As an enemy of my precios Ayanami. Doomed to fight him  forever and
to eventually kill him. It wasn't my wish to continue living. But  the chief
interferred with my life and I was forced here. So... I thought I  would at
least take his scythe that was sealed in this church. To have  something of him
that would be mine until eternety. But I never wanted to meet  him again. I
don't want to see his pain. I don't want to be called a traitor.  And to some
extent I thought I should clean my heart from all my thoughts of  him. But then
father showed me another thing through Mikhael. How you fled the  army and ended
up near the canyon, dying there. So he made me decide between  savouring my
feelings towards Ayanami, or to save you and to eventually let go  of him."
 
"Could it be the chief does not want you two to be together?"  I asked, just as
a rhetorical question and sighted. I hugged the small body on  my chest with a
feeling of not wanting to let go.
 
"Well... at least, that explains how you know me so good. And why  this
situation feels so damn right. Don't let go of me, Teito"



                       Kapitel 6: Bittersweet Memories 2
                       ---------------------------------


 
"Teito~ you here?" I  heard a familiar voice right beside my ear. I blinked a
few times until I was  aware again of were I was. And why the heck collonel
Hyuuga was so close to me.  I was lying on a sofa, a black coat over my body. On
no.... 
 
I felt myself blush heavily.  It was Ayanamis coat that protected me from the
eye of the rest, but Hyuuga,  like always, had found me. Maybe he wanted to
tease me again.... like always.
 
"Nee, Teito, you're  completely out of it these last few weeks. What's up?" he
asked me.I  raised my head to look at him. I thought I would  see one of his
hated smiles, but to my  surprise he was looking seriously honest.
 
Ah, I see. This was a memory from before Ayanami and I had that twisted 
relationship. 
 
I looked around the room and  noticed that I was alone with him. Feeling
relieved I slowly sat up and almost  hugged the coat in my arms. "It's nothing,
collonel Hyuuga. I'm sorry for  worrying you. Where is Ayanami-sama?" I asked.
 
But he was right. What was up  with me? I felt more and more unsettled the more
I was with Ayanami. He was my  superior, I shouldn't act like this. But... my
head was throbbing again.  "He went off to a meeting a few hours ago. I thinks
you're his first  begleiter that sleeps at times like this" I heard him say.
 
"Wait, a meeting? Oh  shit, why didn't he wake me!?" I rushed off from the sofa,
strightened my  clothes, foldet Ayanamis coat and gulped. He would be mad as
hell... I've  actually never seen him mad before, but I knew when Hyuuga made
him angry he  took his whip. And I wasn't really into pain that much. 
 
"I'll take you there! I  bet Aya-tan wiould be mad if I wouldn't." I looked at
him kind of  confused. "Why would he? It's my fault for just sleeping like this.
But I  wont stop you" I then said and slyghtly bowed down, before I quikly went 
out of this room to the hall the meetings always took place. My superior would 
probably be stiff after this meeting. He always was, and I knew why; he was 
hated by the others who were afraid of him and permanently were almost 
insulting him. On my way there I didn't notice very much. I knew this ship 
already to good to go sightseeing like the new ones who recently entered the 
ship.
 
I stayed outside the room next  to the door and waited there until the meeting
had finished. Hyuuga had brought  me here but dissapeared off to somewhere.
Maybe picking up sone sweets again. 
 
"Oh! This ship really is  quite magnificent! I wonder how big it is in total~" I
then heard a much  to familiar voice. Shuri Oak. Oh I hated him. And here he
was, walking and  talking in a voice loud enough that I was sure the officiers
in the meeting  could hier him also.
 
"Shut up, Oak. There is a  meeting of higher ups in this room. You're
disturbing" I said. He seemed  to notice me just now and went pale before
pointing a finger at me. "You!  Why are you here!?" he exclaimed. 
 
"I said shut up, daddy's  boy." I just answered.
 
"Ah, I know! You must be  here with Miroku-sama, after all you are his sklave,
right?  Oh I'm brilliant, papa will praise me!"
 
Ugh... I wanted to throw up by  now. What an idiot he still was. Naive and
insolent. Like he was even in the  academy. I glared at him. "Oh you know what,
from today onward I'm gonna  serve on this ship. Be awed by me!" he continued.
 
I could here mourns f annoyed men  from inside the room. And I kne all to well
they were annoyed at Shuri. But it  seemed like they just finished.
 
"Hey you, sklave, listen  to me! Or should I discipline you with zaiphon until
you listen?" I still  glared at him.
 
"You... Are a freakin  idiot and are ashaming general Oak, you know" I just
said. But he snapped  at this. " Don't say I insult my papa!" he shouted, raised
his hand  and build an attack of zaiphon. Actualli I couldn't care less about
that, but  the higher ups were leaving the room and shuri did not cancel his
attack. The  zaiphon words perished and rushed right to me. At least until I saw
Ayanami  stepping out of the room and right into the line of the attack.
 
"Ayanami-sama!" I  uttered. And then I snapped. That was the first time I
activated the eye of  Mikhael in front of anyone. But I could not let Shuri
continue his foolishness.
 
A second later I had countered  shuri with a zaophon of my own and thrown him
against the wall in his back. My  right hand was pointing towards him. The stone
glimmed bright red and I knew my  eyes were also bloor red. A skulpture like
bones came out of the eye, horribly  sharp, all only millimeters away from
Shuris vital points. 
 
I heard the higher ups behind  me holding their breath.
 
"You... do you know who  you almost attacked right there?" I asked. Surprisingly
I was still  myself. Well, angry and using Mikhael, but still myself. I saw
Shuris shocked  gaze on me and then on the eye, until he looked at Ayanami, who
looked not the  least bit surprsed.
 
"Don't you dare come  anymore near Ayanami-sama, bastard" I said icy.
 
"Teito. Stop that. It's  an unseemengly behaviour for my begleiter" I heard my
superior. I looked  at the silver locked man and almost huffed in
dissapointment, but I listened.  Mikhael stoped his assault and went back to
normal, my eyes went back to green.
 
"I'm sorry for being  late, Ayanami-sama." I said, walked casually over to him
and helped him  into his coat, wich I had been holding the whole time. He didn't
scold me. He  didn't say anything at all, and the others were just as silent in
shock as  Shuri.
 
"Papa!" oh wait, he  was up already and clinging to his father. I sighted
annoyed.
 
"Why the eye?" I  heard Ayanami ask, but not really loud. I looked at him, then
away.
 
"Just snapped a bit. You  knew I was the wielder. Something like this was bound
to happen sooner or  later" I whispered, then I noticed chairman Miroku heading
to us.
 
"Teito. You look  good" he said, smiling and I nodded. " Yes. I'm alright. I'm
sorry  for the commotion." I bowed down.
 
"Oh no, it's alright. But  that just now: the eye. Since when do you remember
it" he asked. So he  also knew about it.
 
"... I don't know. Just  now maybe. I wasn't really aware of it" I was such a
bad liar that it was  surprising he let it go like this.
 
"Chaiman Miroku. I'll  excuse myself then" Ayanami said, turned around and I
bowed down, hurrily  following him. But I didn't say anything. I was
surprisingly tired now, but I  couldn't sleep again like before. So I just
walked next to Ayanami.
 
------------------
 
"So, that's about all of  the paperwork for today" I exhaled tired. It had
gotten late, but I  finnaly had finished my work, and a part of Ayanamis also.
As an apology for  sleeping at midday, although he hadn't been mad at me for
that. I put the  papers on one stock, put away the pen and laid my upper boddy
on the desk. I  was finished. If I would have known how tiring it would be to
use Mikhael... I  sure wouldn't have snapped.Good to think so just afterwards...
 
I stayed like this several  minutes until I closed my eyes. Just five minutes,
then I would call it a day.
 
...
 
I fell asleep. 
 
Overall P.O.V.:
 
"Oh Aya-tan~ lil' Teito  has fallen asleep again! Whatcha gonna do?" Hyuuga
asked the silver haired  superior who was his friend since years. The other
black hawks just chukled.
 
"Well... he really seems  off this days. Somethings seems to be on his mind"
Konatsu said. "I  wonder what holds him. I mean he is the only one beside me
that can do normal  work. It would be bad if he would drop out because of a cold
or something like  this."
 
"Haha, Konatsu-chan,  Warsfeil don't get ill~" Hyuuga laughed.
 
But Konatsu just gave him an  annoyed look. " You are forgetting that neither I
nor Teito are of the  lineage of warsfeil. We are strong and most probably have
the same darkness in  our hearts as you, but we are still mere human." the
blonde said, then looked  over to Teito. "Maybe he caught a cold or something
like this?"  Konatsu said, stood up and crossed the small place over to Teito,
but before he  could touch the brunnetes forehead the stone in his hand showed
up. So Konatsu  decided to stop were he was.
 
In the end it was Ayanami who  just had listened in silence as if disinteresstet
in all that, who put awar his  paper and slowly stood up. "So in the end Aya-tan
has to take care of him  again~" Hyuuga giggled. Ayanami ignored him, heaved up
Teito without another  word and took him away, leaving surprised warsfeil
behind.
 
"Ne, Haruse. Do you think  Ayanami-sama is mad at Teito?" Kuroyuri asked. Haruse
smiled.
 
"I highly doubt that,  Kuroyuri-sama.He just seems a bit irritated."
 
"That's because Teito is  special to Aya-tan. Right, Konatsu?"
 
"I guess. And it's not  just the eye or that he carries his 'body' if you ask
me."
 
Ayanami on the other hand  really could not have been more irritated. He should
have been mad at the small  boy on his arms, but strangely he wasn't. All the
reasons that could explain  him why he cared about the boy seemed to shallow.
Teito was a splendid  subordinate, that was for sure. And he was lively, with a
radiance he did not  want to dissapear. But he was also able to take on the
warsfeil of the black  hawks without dying. Worthy of being his begleiter. And
yet that was no reason  to get so attached to him. 
 
Anyway, Ayanami quickly found  himself in his own room and put Teito down on the
bed. He pulled of a glove and  felt Teitos forehead. He had a slight fever.
Strangely enough Mikhael didn't  mind him out of all people and had dissapeared.
He looked at the sleeping boy a  moment, then just put the blanket over him and
sat down next to him, slowly  undressing. Maybe a good nights sleep would do
good from time to time. And if  the boy would wake up he would be to emberrassed
to ever let it come down to  this again; of that he was sure.
 
When he was finished he  himself laid down in his bed next to the boy. The bed
was a kingsized one, so  there was enough space, but he still was quite near to
the other. And with a  satisfied sadistic smile, he went to sleep.
 
Teitos P.O.V.:
 
I had no idea where I was  right now. It was warm... but dark. I mean, I got the
thing that I was  obviously lying in a bed. But... whose? Wasn't I in the black
hawks office just  now? I had just finished my paperwork. I wanted to calll it a
day and then....
 
Crap. Did I fall asleep again?  I must have, for when I woke up in a bed someone
must have carried me here.  What brought me back to the point: where was 'here'?
 
I stared at the ceiling a bit,  or at least into the dark where somewhere a
ceiling had to be. Although my eyes  where adjusted to the darkness, it was
still hard to focus on something. So I  decided to sit up and tried. My body was
strangely heavy and as I finaly got up  something wet fell on my knees. I felt
for what it was and it turned out to be  a wet towel.But why...?
 
Oh wait. I could answer my  question by myself as I rose an arm and felt my
forehead. I had a fever. I didn't  remember when I last had a fever and was...
ill. Since my memorie loss not at  least. And before...? No, still an unfamiliar
thought. Fevers from infected  wounds though were nothing new. But since I
started to serve Ayanami I hadn't  gotten any terrible wounds. 
 
I shivered at the thought of  the lilac eyes of the other men. Cold and
mercyless... but I was strangely  adicted. I even was seeing them right now next
to me.
 
...
 
Wait. 
 
...
 
I noticed that those weren't  just eyes. I could even make out the silver locks
and this saddisticly amused  smile and...
 
"Uwaaaa!" with a  loud scream a crawled away from the one right next to me.
Saddly there was the  beds end and I fell on the floor with a loud noise. WHAT
THE HECK!?
 
"It seems you are...  better for the time beeing, Teito Klein"
 
Haha! Funny! I even heard his  voice!
 
"A...A-A-Ayanami.....-sama!"  I managed at least to utter, as I changed my
position from this ugly sight to  kneeling. "I... uh..." I was at a loss for
words. Of all places I  could have ended up, I was here!? Whose idea had this
been!? Hyuuga? I already  thought about how I could try killing this men, when I
took notice of my  superior again. This time he was closer to my face. TOO
CLOSE. But I didn't  dare make a move so I just stared at the floor.
 
Our foreheads touched lightly  and I instantely flinched back. Cold. His skin
was cold...or rather, my skin  was burning. Maybe my fever wasn't just 'slight'.
 
"Go back to bed right  this instance" I heard Ayanami. I wasn't sure whether he
was annoyed,  angry or tired, but either way making the wrong move would
probably really piss  him off now... So I nodded and stood up. Could as well go
to my own room when I  was awake now. But just as this thought   crossed my
mind I heard him again.
 
"This instance, Teito Klein"  he repeated. I've never heard him repeat anything,
so I gulped. 'This instance'  obviously meant back to where I was before. Right
next to him. "Yes  sir" I whispered, to embarassed to speak up loud, crawled
back on the bed  and pulled up the blanked over me again.
 
"Good boy" he said,  turned over to the other side and pulled up his part of the
blanked. But how  was I supposed to sleep like this!? This man was driving me
insane with his  presence alone, and I should sleep? With him next to me where I
could actually  hear him breathe? I could feel his warmth from where he had been
until I got  back into bed. All this made me anxious and tense.
 
I could never sleep like this!  I was even to nervous to close my eyes! The
empires most frightening man just  laid right next to me and I was supposed to
sleep. Respect to anyone who would  be able too. I had strong nerves, but this
was too much for me.I tried to calm  down. Thinking of tiring things or if I had
to; counting sheeps. Without moving  an inch I stayed like this,what seemed to
me like an eternety.
 
"You... are nerve  wrecking" Ayanami hissed at some point. Now I've done it.... 
 
"I'm... sorry I just..."  I whispered.Just what? 
 
'Sorry, too afraid of you to  sleep?' 
'Just don't see why you are  doing this?'
'Having this fever because of  you, and now sleeping next to you?'
'Decided to stay awake until  you fell asleep so that I could finally relax?'
I was clinging too much to my  life to die because of what I could answer  right
here.
 
"Just....  sorry."  I eventually just said.The  moon had finaly reached it's
highest point and though it was middle of night it  was getting easier to see. I
felt the vibration as he moved around to look at me.  "Speak up, Teito klein.
That fever is from to much thinking"
 
"I can't bother you with-"  "Shut it. Just speak up already" he interruptet me.
 
"My... memories. They are  confusing. It's.. it's as if my memories consist of
two completely different  and independable people. The... Tiasche I was in the
past, before the Raggs  war... and the memories of... a weird place, almost like
a garden. Too  peacefull to exist but it feels so right and calming. A sea of
white flowers of  eden... someone... someone very dear to me, but I can't grasp
who that person  is. In these far off memories I feel so... light and protected
by this  person... although I know I might never touch him. I can't... cope with
that.  I'm Teito. Teito Klein. My time as Tiasche endet. I can accept the
memories as  Tiasche and Mikhael. I can even accept to be pandoras box. But...
who is 'Eve'?  In these distant memories, the person I long for calls me 'Eve'.
But I have no  recollection of... someone by that name. And everytime I think
about that my  head hurts and my sight goes blurry, and he remembers me of you.
So every  minute with you gives me a headache." I answered. "I'm sorry... like 
I said it's... stupid. Please forget what I said" I immedeately attached  after
I finished.
 
"Yes, you are indeed  stupid" I heard Ayanami answer.
 
"Wha..." 'what was  that for!?' I really wanted to ask him straight out like
that. But he had  already rolled over to me.. or more, rolled on top of me.
Instinctively I rose  my armes, but he just pushed them down and I endet up
staring into his lilac  eyes. They were cold, yes... but neither annoyed nor
filled with anger. He  looked at my orbs, deep down into myself, as if searching
for something.
 
"Just stop thinking about  it. It will return eventually to you even without
exhausting yourself." He  said, then lowered his face again nearer to mine. The
hell was he gonna do?  Feeling my fever again? No obviously not.
 
Rather than that, he kissed  me. It was a hot, demanding kiss,and I had almost
no choice but to reply. After  all he was my superior. But I... 
 
Heck, I couldn't! Without  thinking I freed one of my arms and slapped his face.
In contradiction to that,  my tears had begann flowing. I stared right into his
eyes, but he still wasn't  angry. That scared me the most. Never had anyone
given Ayanami so much as a  scratch, and I just had hit him in the face, so why
wasn't he mad at me? But he  still looked at me like that, catched both of my
hands with his, held them down  and kissed me again.
 
I still wasn't prepared and  was scared but this time it was different. He was
still kinda demanding but...  more carefull. His lips were soft and warm and
although I had no idea of what  was going on right now, I just closed my eyes
and replied the kiss. I had no  experience whatsoever in this kind of thing, but
he seriously didn't seem to  mind. I had no idea why he kissed me in the first
place. Or why I replied. Or  why I almost started to cry when I slapped him. Or
why this felt so damn good and right!
 
After a moment he let go of me  again, but I didn't open my eyes again. I was
emberassed and ashamed of so much  right now, I didn't want to see his eyes now.
I felt him wipe away my tears  with his thumbs and how he rolled away from me
again, taking the blanket and  pulling it up again as if nothing of this had
just happened.
 
"And now sleep, Teito  Klein" he ordered.
 
"You... are a cruel  man" I said after a minute. I mean... of course, this
'action' did not calm  me down the least. Quite the opposite: My heart was
beating fast and I was  totally iritated now. But that just made him chuckle.
 
"I guess." 
 
That was my first and my  second kiss, stolen in a few minutes time.
 
And I guess that was the start  of our somehow weird relationship.



                          Kapitel 7: Frau and Ayanami
                          ---------------------------


Fraus P.O.V.:
I stared at the ceiling. I was cold. But I didn't dare move. And there was no
way to get a hold of the blanket from my position right now. And why was that?
Well I would say it's because of the boy on top of me. After explaining so much
to me and crying so much, he fell asleep. Right on the spot. At times like this
he really seemed like the kid he was, but he looked exhausted and so I didn't
mind. After all, Labrador had said he should sleep until... tommorow evening or
what was it? Still, I was cold, and that was probably because his body
temperature was decreasing again. Seems the warmth from the bath only stays for
an hour or so.

I sighted and lifted an arm, only to put the hand above my eyes. I thought about
what he told me again. Everything seemed so hilarious... but it made sense in a
total. Verloren felt betrayed, and he had all rights to. His rampaging is also
understandable. But more than that, I started to slowly sypathize with him.
And... Eve fell down to earth, originally splitting her soul and seeping into
every human. But these past years she scraped the pieces all together and was
reborn as a human boy... named Tiashe Wahrheit Raggs. Prince of Raggs Kingdome.

But due to some weird circumstances Tiasche died. He would have to explain that
part to me in detail when he woke up again.
So, to safe his life, the eye of Mikhael was planted into him, making him a
living Pandoras Box with it's very own key attached to it. And he lived on as
Teito Klein. He watched as his kingdom got destroyed and saw how his father the
King was slaughtered. I didn't even want to imagine what he must have felt like.

And after that, he travelled with his uncle and lived as an orphan of the
church... until the almost same scenario happened, and he got his memories
sealed. He lived as a battle slave, was finally able to make a friend, just so
he could loose him again.

And then he encountered that Ayanami... also known as the reincarnation
of Verloren. That was what triggered all the following incidents... and the
chief interfered. He was god, wasn't he supposed to not interfere? Well,
obviously he thought different.

And when Teito died he reincarnated as Zehel. And because it is custom that
ghosts take on names different to the one in their previous life, he chose the
name Mikhael.

I slowly started to understand. But that didn't mean I liked the way things were
now. As far as I was concerned, this mess only happened because of a certain
someones interference. And because, wouldn't he have done that, Verlorens life
wouldn't have been fucked up, Eve wouldn't have died, Ayanami had never existed
like this, and I would not be a deserter.

Wonder who the responsible one is I thought with an ironic tone that surprised
myself.

A knocking on the door brought my mind back to the present. "Yeah, come on in" I
replied, but Teito stayed asleep. It was Kind of hard to see who entered but I
soon saw that it was Hakuren as he steppen nearer.

"Hey there. Would you be so friendly as to give me a blanket? This brat is icy"
I sighted. "Hey there, Frau. Looks good like that. Did he cry?" he replied,
grabbing a blanket and putting it on top of me and Teito. I noddet. "How did you
know?"

"Well, he normaly refuses to sleep... but always ends up totally tired out when
he cries... What is surprisingly often, considering he is a bishop" Hakuren
said. "And? What did he tell you?" he asked. I just stayed quiet a moment.
"Too... much. I'm still trying to sort out my thoughts. What do you already
know?" I then replied.

"I? Uhm... Well, his origin. The fact who he was before being Tiasche, who he
was after being Tiasche and who he is now. I know about his connection to
Ayanami... and now I'm wondering how he is connected to you. He didn't tell me
so I decided to wait and ask you."

"Oh... Then, sorry to dissapoint you, I'm still very much confused about the
connection with him. He told me it was because of the chiefs interferrence,
showing him an alternative timeline in wich we would have a special connection
and... yeah. That's about all I understood from that part. Hey, do you people
have anything that can brake these fucking hand and feet cuffs? They're going on
my nerves." I said. He chuckled. "Ask Teito when he's awake." he replied. I
noticed his gaze falling on the flowers on the coffin. They had efficiently
conquerred the whole big thing by now. Both of us stared at the flowers.

"He tried to take your soul?" It was just a whisper from Hakuren, but I heard a
bit of sorrow in it. This time it was me who chuckled. "And utterly failed. But
even then, I promised it to him" I grinned. "Call me crazy, I don't know what
I'm doing or saying in his presence. I don't make any sense anymore. And the
best is, I just don't give a damn about it" I stared at the ceiling again.
Slowly I started to get a bit warmer again.

"You promised yourself to him? Like what, swore loyalty to him like a knight to
a princess? Or did you ask for his hand with the plan to make him entirely
yours?" Hakuren chuckled and I blushed.

"I have no such intentions!" I huffed; but fuck: I had those intentions.

With a big sight I looked at him. "You know, you're one mean fella. Sure you
wanna become a bishop?" I asked and seriously meant it like this. But he just
smiled.

"Yes~ I plan to take after bishop Castor, as he seems the most like the late
bishop Fea Kreuz, who made the wish to become a bishop awake inside me. Ah, but
speaking of that, what do you think about becoming a bishop yourself?"

"I? Are you serious? Have you ever taken a good look at me? I scare the hell out
of the most children and don't look anywhere like a clergyman. Aside from that I
smoke and like porns. How would I be able to become a bishop? "

"Well, you have a point there" he replied. " But still, I don't think that's
such a bad idea. Because then the military could not chase after you anymore.
Right now you are save under the law of sanctuary, but if you leave the church
it's all over. But becoming a bishop would end this status. I mean, even Teito
made it and he is the one that's least like a bishop."

"Like what? He seems pretty decent" I said. But Hakuren chuckled again.

"Yeah right. He doesn't care about heaven or hell. He doesn't care about god in
particular, more like he started to hate him. He has no sense of secrecy in
terms of beeing a ghost, and he most certainly is the first ghost that openly
confessed that he is on Verlorens side. So... smoking and loving porns seems
like a petty little crime in front of him." Hakuren explained, and I nodded.

"Is Castor still angry?"

"Yes. Pretty much as it seems. Labrador and Castor like Teito... but that kid
has a tendency to be drawn to trouble like a magnet to metal. Also, I think his
knowledge about everything scares people around him."

"Could that be because of the memories of an alternate timeline?" I sighted.

"He told me he was shown an alternate tomeline by the chief of heavens. Thats
were our connection origins... and apparently I would have been a bishop... and
he the deserter seeking refugee in church. Thats the reason he knows how I react
I believe."
"... Wow. Stop it please, thats to creepy. But well, I can kind of believe that.
When he came to the church he knew me from somewhere. Knew my reason for beeing
hereand lifted a burden from my shoulders. I hated my father... but now I think
I can forgive him. Thanks to Teito."

"I still don't know what to call him. Teito, Tiasche or Mikhael?" I sighted.

Haruken smirked. "Well, you have three choices; everyone is kind of right. Just
don't think to much about it~" he said and I agreed to that. I had thought
enough these last days, and my head hurt like it had been split into two parts.
A disturbing feeling.

"I wanna stand up" I sighted.

"Then do so. He'll stay asleep"

"But I don't wanna leave his side"

"... Then stay?"

"... but!"

"Heck, decide already! You're a grown man, don't be so indecisive"

I sighted. He was right. I acted really spoiled right now. But you see...
staying like this was kind of a nice feeling. Aside from the fact that he was
still cold and started to be a bit heavy.

I wrapped my arms around him more thightly, rolled over so he was beneath me.
Than I slowly let go of him and stood up from the bet, pulling the blanket back
up over the short kid.

"And now?" Hakuren asked him and Frau shrugged his shoulders.

"Out of here. Away. How about showing me the church for once. I'm still no good
in finding my ways around here"

"And that's it. I believe the place you will find yourself in most probably will
be the library or the childrens wellfare place."

"Me and children? Didn't I tell you I scare the hell out of 'em?"

"Just wait until you get to know them. They're a hand full, you know?" he
sighted. Hakuren had once again shown me most places of the church. The court,
the mess hall, the dining hall, the library. The way to the children he only
described me, saying they were taking a nap now and he didn't want to
accidentaly wake them. He had shown me the lower parts were the trainees could
fight kor- for the first time I saw a kor in it's original form. Remindet me
kind of on the skelleton wings of birds... but then again, I was bad at animal
phisiology, so I guess I was a bit off.

"So um... one question I have left, but I dodn't know if you can answer that" I
started.

"Just ask. You can't get more than an excuse from me for not knowing" he smiled.

"Well... why was the army here? Especially the black haws, for me? I mean, I am
a deserter... but normaly they could care less about a mere battle sklave,
right?" I asked, really curious for the answer. Hakuren walked besides me a
while, then sighted.

"I have no idea. Really. But fact is that they now know that Teoto is alive and
where to find him"

"Wait. How would they know?" I was confused. Hakuren stared at me.

"The warsfeil teito fought."

"What's with him. He's dead, ain't he?"

Again that look. "No... That was not enough to kill him. Teito once expained to
me that they are fearfully powerfull. And that Ayanami holds half of everyones
soul of his underlings. That was why Castor was supposed to cut the link between
that guy and Ayanami. But I didn't see him doing so as he was to occupied in his
own fight. Haruse is still alive. And Ayanami knows it all now. He knows about
Teito... and he knows about you"

I gulped.

"Shit."

On a certain Ribidzile:


Ayanami's P.O.V.:


"You sure, Aya-tan? You do know about the treaty between the empire and the
church, to never cross the 7th district, righ?" normaly my first in command
would have a more playful tone, but he knew that my decision would as well lead
us to war. But I really could care less.

"Prepare the ribidzile for take off." I ordered the subordinates, who just
gulped, noddet and slowly went on with preparing.
"I slowly start to think you're going crazy" Hyuuga said. I couldn't blame him,
ans I myself told the rest to speak openly with me about the whole thing.

"Do you really think I would stay still" I answered icy.

I lost him to often to let him go now- especially as he was near that shithead
named Frau.

The last years after I had found that sklave I had the urge to torture him
everyway I knew. But I restrained myself most of the time. The blonde and I knew
earch other, and his escape upsetted me in a really dangerous manner. He was
connected to Teito in a really weird manner, and I didn't want to lose that
connection. This was the reason I had wanted to get him back in my hands.

I swore to myself that this time I would really start breaking him in every
aspect. His mind, his body, his soul. But when I sent out Haruse, who almost
catched him...

He was there. So fuck all rules and a 'maybe-to-break-out' war; I was gonna
bring him back.
I felt Hyuugas 'gaze' pierciing on me.

"I really don't believe that you are going to stay still... but Aya-tan, don't
you think it's a bit risky to take the ribidzile? You know, it's like we're
asking for war. How about just the two of us take a hawkzile from the borders to
the 7th district and enter the church? Teito is no fool: he knows that we found
him. He will be awaiting us, and you in special."

For once I had to agree to him. But still, I was furious. He was alive... as a
ghost?

I only knew one being who could be this cruel, and it enraged me even more. If I
had my body and my soul together; hell, I would go up there and shred the chief
in little tiny pieces until he could never become what he was now again.

"Ayanami-sama" Haruse stepped forward, Kuroyuri on his arms again, although the
smaller male was awake.

"I think Hyuugas plan is the best. And... Judging from my and Teitos encounter I
believe a good talk would be best now. I seem to have messed up this part" He
said. I silently glared at him.

Messed up? He couldn't have messed up more than he did. He let Frau slip through
his hands, encountered two of the ghosts, and tried to kill Teito in his furry.
I grinnded my teeth but stayed silent. Every word I could utter to him right now
would be an accousation.

"We will depart tommorow morning. Make sure you have plenty of energy." And
that's it.

I was gonna bring back what's mine.



                      Kapitel 8: Decide it for yourself!
                      ----------------------------------


"You refuse to change your mind, Aya-tan... You know, I really do like you and
all that stuff. But this is more than a bit crazy. You know, we can't bring him
back. He's one of the seven now. He's Zehel, the one wielding your scythe. A
big-shot if you prefer to say it like this. Even if he wants to come back, they
won't let him; he's your natural enemy." Hyuuga said to me.

I really didn't want to listen to him. My nerves were strained enough, and I had
problems to stay as calm as always. If I would be just anybody else, I would
probably run around, shouting and destroying things.

But I wasn't someone else; I was Ayanami, and I had a reputaion.

Also, I believe I would be ashamed if I would let my emotions take over. I mean
I had many live's worth of experience, so I could be shaken by next to nothing.

And then... this. This whole mess with Eve... no, Teito. Who, actually,
genetically speaking, was my nephew. But we never spoke about that fact. To be
precise, we never spoke about anything related to that.

For better or worse, we didn't speak about much topics, that we should not have
avoided. And when we tried... It ended in a fight. Like with the topic about
Frau.

"And just to remind you, Aya-tan, he's with Frau now. Who knows how far their
relationship is? Maybe he is happy right now? Don't you think his life was
already messed with enough by other people? You included?"

The same could be said about my life, you know? But I rather kept quiet then
saying this out aloud. Answering him in my mind really calmed me down a bit. I
still had no intention on changing plans.

"I mean, let me sum up; you killed your mom, his grandmother, and dissappeared.
He never got to know about his uncle. You helped killing his dad. You killed his
uncle Fea Kreuz and absorbed him... He became a combat slave because of you more
or less. Then the chief removed his mind blockade. Not for the better, to add up
to all. Showing him an alternate time line and... hey, Aya-tan are you even
listening to me?"

I'd prefer I wouldn't.

"Just shut up already." I whispered. It was late evening and all of us went to
our own rooms. Well, almost all of us. Hyuuga had followed me to my room, where
we were sitting and sharing drinks since then.

What was, truth be told, not to my liking. Hyuuga knew very well about his
funktion as my conscience. And now, he's making it guilty as hell. And damn,
he's really good at that, too.

"So you are listening" he nodded.

Silence followed after his statement. I swallowed the next drink and he kept
filling it. He was clearly trying to make me drunkt. Probably because I was
easier to handle when drunk. Nothing new to me, but still it felt like a kick
into the stomach.

"Hyuuga... tell me, how did you feel when he died."

"That was an order, wasn't it?" he sighted.

"I really don't know why you do this to yourself, Ayanami. You must be some kind
of masochist"

Well, I had no evidence to deny this.

"Miserable. We all felt like this. Because we are all bound to you. We all had
our fair share of pain and sorrow and grieve from ourselfes. But yours added up
to that, even though you dimmed the connection. I know. Thats the reason you
will bring him back. But think about this a bit more please. At least, don't
drag us along on your suicidal ride"


__________________________________________________________________________________________

My head hurt. It was to bright. Why was it so bright? Wasn't I supposed to lie
in my coffin?

Oh right, Frau took me out and...

"How long did I sleep" I whispered as I noticed I wasn't alone in the room.
Though I couldn't tell who was with me.

"Long enough to recover, short enough to still have some bags left under your
eyes." I heard a slight chuckle. So it was Labrador. I lifted an arm and laid it
on my closed eyes. Like this, the sun was bearable.

"Thanks for... you know. Those flowers. A premonition?"

"A feeling. I noticed your feelings of possesion towards Frau-san. I thought it
couldn't be bad to do this"

"You saved my day there, Lab... you really did." I sighted.

Slowly I was adjusting to the lights, put away my arm and blinked a few times,
before opening my eyes finally. I stared at the ceiling, just trying to put in
order all of my thoughts.

That night I went to sleep, the fight, Haruses dead body...

Wait.

Something was wrong.

I flung up into a sitting position, at about the same time Labrador slipped the
tea pot and it chrashed down, hundres of shreds of porcelein crumbling all over
the floor.

"He's not dead" we said as if we were one.

"Who is not dead?" I heard a all to familiar voice and my head flung up.

"Frau... Bishop Lance..." both blonde guys just entered the room, followed by
Castor and Hakuren. But that was not all. Assistens Archbishop Bastien was here
with them.

I threw my legs off the bed and quickly stood up. My head was spinning from the
fast movement, but ok, this was much more important.

"He's not dead! Haruse is not dead!" I repeated, and everybody looked at me with
confusion.

"I'm not insane, belive me! He disappeared before I could land a finishing blow,
he is not dead! And do you know what this means? Exactely! Ayanami knows I am
here and still breathing!" I exclaimed, a little bit panicked.

Silence followed.

"What's this. I come back from my journey to find this? Why do things always go
wrong whenever I'm not around?" Lance sighted, frowning.

"Let's think about this before running up and around, bishop Mikhael" Bastien
said. Castor and Hakuren stayed silent.

"To start with, only that he knows you're here doesn't mean he'll start a war to
take you back, does it?" he smiled, trying to releave me.

"You have no idea to what he is cappable of" I whispered as I turned pale.

Hakuren walked up to me, taking a hold of my arm and stopping me from running up
and down the room. Frau frowned a bit, but I was in no condition to pick on him
for that.

"What?" Castor asked.

"I said: you have no idea, not the slightest bit, what he can do, and what he
might do" I repeated.

"Finding me here... alive and kicking, as the being I am now" I started, but was
interrupted by Lances warning gaze and Castor turned to Bastien.

"Bastien-sama, won't you-"

"Castor!" I said.

"Let him stay! What I'm about to say if essential for the next few days! For the
lives of everyone in this church! So take your damn rules and go away for all I
care!" I hissed.

Everyone fell silent, the ghosts threw angry gazes at me.

"You're breaking the rules again"

"I don't give a shit about that! Look at me, Lance! I'm breathing without
heartbeat! I never wished to be what I am now! I never wished anything of this,
so for all I care deprive me of my status, I'd be happy to escape this whole
mess. But you can't, so keep quiet!"

Hakuren tried to calm me down a bit.

"Now now, Teito, calm down a bit. He's right in you breaking the rules. It's
their job to remind you of the boundaries." he said, the only one in the room
totally unaffected by my little outburst.

I stared at him for a minute, then I walked to the bed and sat down on it's
side.

"Ok. So, I'm gonna start at the beginning. And guess what? None of you can stop
me. Stay or go, I don't care" I said, a bit calmer than before. Hakuren sat down
right to me, Frau on my left side.

"I don't really... get whats going on, but it seems important... so I'm going to
stay." Bastien said. I nodded.

"Well... he has a point... we can't deprive you of your status... for whatever
reason, the chief must think you have to do this."

"Screw the chief and his fucked up way of thinking" I answered Lance and the
rest held their breath.

"Don't say this, Mikhael!" Labrador said. He looked a little sad.

"Oh, for god's sake, this may also stop! It's Teito, once and for all! I'm
stoping with this maskerade! It's Teito Klein, not Mikhael" I frowned.

"And I can say about my dad what I want to say"


__________________________________________________________________________________________

I think I shocked them to death.

Labrador and Lance stopped moving. I could bet Bastien stopped breathing, Castor
and the rest just froze. Maybe we stayed like this for a few seconds, maybe half
an hour.

But it was long enough to snort at them. This, it seems, brought them back into
the present. Lance coughed suddelny, waking the rest up.

"This... this is not funny! Don't make jokes like this!"

"That was no jooke. Trust me, I may be lacking in my sense of humor, but I
defenately would not joke about this fact." I said.

Again, silence fell. Bastien and Castor were the first to understand I really
didn't joke.

"So... Teito. You telling us, the chief is you... father" Bastien said.

"Was. Not in this body anymore at least. The one you would probalby believe the
most, is Eve. Nice to meet you by the way, stop staring. I wouldn't dare make a
joke about this." I said.

"And now, please everyone, think about it. If I am Eve's reincarnation, and
Ayanami knows this, what will he do if he finds out where I am?"

Slowly the rest went pale.

"Yes, I believe you finally understand my ittle panick. Oh and just for the
record, before I became a seven ghost" I said, and Lance hissed at me again.
Bastiens eyes widened.

"So, before becoming what I am now, I was with him. You know, like. I was his
Begleiter." I said, then lowering my head a bit.

"I wish it would just have been that" Frau then said, breaking the silence that
again had fallen.

"We were lovers. Don't blame us for that. We were both human, both with
memories. Blame me for something more reasonable." I sighted.

Nobody said anything to that. Everyone just thought about this situation on his
own. Each of us thinking about what was going to come.

"We're in deep trouble" Castor then said. Bastien still didn't dare say a word.

"Yeah. That was what I was trying to say. I bet he's already on his way. In a
fucking Ribidzile... with all of the black hawks. We're screwed" I said.

"Don't be like this, teito. You know him, you must know his weakness" Hakuuren
said.

"I am like this because I know him. That man doesn't haave a fucking weakness!
He's like, goddamn immortal! Even if you destroy his body he will just
reincarnate. With all of his memories, and he will repeat the exact same things
he did up until now! With the only difference that he has Fea Kreuz's powers!
Landkarte and Ea are not here with us. Besides, if I'm halfway right, Landkarte
has gone mad, and neither he nor Ea will be of help to us. I can't fight them. I
just... can't. I won't be able to if I see him"

"Yeah. I can relate to that" Castor said.

"Assuming you tell the truth, to me it looks like the only weakness he has is...
you" he said.

Labrador and the rest nodded.

"I am no weakness. I'm just... yeah... What am I?" I looked up at them.

"What the hell am I supposed to be? What am I supposed to do?"
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Castors P.O.V.:

He looked desperate. More than desperate. I couldn't find words to descriibe the
boy in front of us. Right now he looked so small. Hanging shoulders, watery
eyes, filled with tears to the brim. Searching for an answer in everyone of us
here.

He looked vulnerable. I never knew that one of us ghosts could look anywhere
near that.

But considering what he told us, I could understand. He practically told us his
whole life. Eves name was known to all of us church inhabitants. And Teito was
also a fammiliar name, as his death was made public- because he had been the
prince of Raggs kingdome.

His whole life was a mess.

' What the hell am I supposed to be? What am I supposed to do?'

His questions resonated in my mind.

" You are supposed to be yourself" I finally said.

"You are you. Whoever you want to be. Your life as Eve has finished. Your life
as Teito also. Right now, whether as a human or as a ghost, it doesn't matter.
You have to decide for yourself."

I sighted and massaged the bridge of my nose. I got a headache now.

"I believe everyone of us here can relate at least a bit with you. Remember,
when we died we also left behind our previous lifes. Our loved ones, our family,
everything we knew. And no one of us ever wanted to be a ghost" I started.

"So, when we came to, and knew about our existence, we had to decide for
ourselfes. Because that's what let's us stay as a human at least. Beeing human
means making decisions. Teito... what is your decision?" I looked at him, and he
still looked so vulnerable.

"You have to decide. Do you want to take initiative? Do you want to life the way
you want? Or do you want to be ignored from here on out? The moment you decide
to let others decide about yourself, you throw away the rest of your humanity."
I summed up. A spark lit up in his eyes a bit.

"When you became one of us, the very first thing you did was to take on a new
name. Why?"

" Because... everyone of the other ghosts did this."

"Exactely. But why?"

"Why? Because... it's a new life? To start anew, right?"

I nodded.

"The next thing you did, was to take Verlorens Scythe. Why?"

"Because" he started, but fell silent. "... Because I wanted at least a fragment
of Ayanami at my side. That was the second time I was forcefully seperated from
him. I wanted to have a part of him at my side"

"Thats human thinking" I said.

"When you decided to take the bishop exam. Why did you do this?"

"...To become a fully approved ghost. To better mingle with the humans"

"That was the time you started to seperate yourself from the humans. You let
others decide for you. You apparently always let others decide for you. This
only changed when you encountered Hakuren-kun and Frau-kun" I said.

He looked at his sides.

"I did?" his voice was low.

"Yes. Your did everything people wanted you to. But when you met Hakuren you
forced your way through to him until you were friends. Selfishness is a human
emotion. When you rescued Frau you eventually laughed again and got angry again.
Human emotions. You are not yet dead. And you have to decide for yourself. Are
you with us, in fighting against Ayanami? Or are you going back to him?"




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